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Shattered Pieces
Fri Mar 01 2002

I found this on the Internet, Reading it just made me cry and I had to share it. The website link where it can be found is at the bottom.


SHATTERED PIECES"


There's nothing but shattered pieces
my china cup has paid the price
I spent too much at the store today
and his reaction wasn't nice

The kids complained and fussed
I could feel impending doom
He was tired and didn't care
now they're crying in their room

I cower and listen in numb despair
while his curses fill my ears
He's got my throat, I cannot breathe
my eyes well up with tears

"If only you didn't make me mad!"
I know that's what he'll say
I'd run and hide and take the kids
but I'd never get away

He's sitting there, his fire has died
pretending nothing fared
I stand and face him, cup in hand
I've never been so scared

"You see this cup?" I asked him
"So fragile and complete?"
I threw it down in one swift blow
and glass flew at his feet

He stared at me in disbelief
as I finally took a stand
"This cup is me, each broken piece,
I wish you'd understand!"

"Some of the pieces can be fixed
with patience and some glue,
but some of these are just too small
this cup will never be new."

"Each time you say a hateful word
each time you grab my arm,
My mind and heart are shattered
and you'll never undo the harm."

He told me I was crazy,
and I'd better clean up the mess
I guess the lesson here was lost
and so am I, I guess

I found the strength to leave one day
but it took too long to get free
A shattered cup is my reminder
of the life he took from me

The pain is still too real to me
even though he's not around
He still finds ways to hurt me
and throw me to the ground

My life is shattered pieces
but at least I can know this:
Someday God will fix my cup
but who will take care of his?

Angie Horvath 2000


http://www.geocities.com/Heartland/Oaks/6477/index.html

4 Comments
  • From:
    Shellybien (Legacy)
    On:
    Fri Mar 01 2002
    The verse gave me goose bumps. I've been there, myself, I've been that woman. Even after years of not being with my ex-boyfriend, I still catch myself jerking back when someone reaches in front of me for something. I still catch myself, saying thank you and I'm sorry way too much.

    Jerry the ex-boyfriend, used to make me give him oral sex when I'd done something wrong. ( I hadn't, or it was wrong in his mind). He would force me to swallow by holding my nose.

    I don't think you're a prude at all. I think your normal and they're the freaks.

    God bless you and your boys..and I'm thankful he's not a part of your life anymore.
  • From:
    Lexi357 (Legacy)
    On:
    Fri Mar 01 2002
    Hi~I read this and cried.My bestest friend was with an abusive man for 7 years.He would degrade her sexually in every way possible.I am so sorry you had to go through that.Take care ~Lexi~
  • From:
    MadMrJake (Legacy)
    On:
    Sun Mar 03 2002
    Well, I must say that I am the "H" that Sparkler has talks about. S you know the truth about the above, yes I have been very rough with you. I am very sorry for that; and was very careful with you last few times I was with you. You have always looked at the effect of what has happened in our marriage, you have never looked at the cause; when you do you always have laid the blame on me. Yeah I'm not perfect nor will I, you keep claming that you where abused! If you where so abused by me why is it that you would never stay with one Counselor, but when the Counselor would start to get to the root of the problem you would never go back, but rather find a reason to discount them.
    I'm not saying that I have not been wrong or that the way that I have treated you has not been right, but that it was learned behavior from the both of us. S, I would so hope that you would go and talk with Pastor Winters, finish what you started with him, I don't say this as your Husband, or your soon to be Ex, but as your Friend that you had once trusted seven years ago. And to any one would like to rip on me with out hearing the other side.... well it's your choice! You have only heard one side and there is always "the rest of the story" S I do care for you and hope that you find what it is that you have been looking for the last few years.
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  • From:
    MadMrJake (Legacy)
    On:
    Sun Mar 03 2002
    Well, I must say that I am the "H" that Sparkler has talked about. S you know the truth about the above, yes I have been very rough with you. I am very sorry for that; and was very careful with you last few times I was with you. You have always looked at the effect of what has happened in our marriage, you have never looked at the cause; when you do you always have laid the blame on me. Yeah I'm not perfect nor will I, you keep claming that you where abused! If you where so abused by me why is it that you would never stay with one Counselor, but when the Counselor would start to get to the root of the problem you would never go back, but rather find a reason to discount them.
    I'm not saying that I have not been wrong or that the way that I have treated you has not been right, but that it was learned behavior from the both of us. S, I would so hope that you would go and talk with Pastor Winters, finish what you started with him, I don't say this as your Husband, or your soon to be Ex, but as your Friend that you had once trusted seven years ago. And to any one would like to rip on me with out hearing the other side.... well it's your choice! You have only heard one side and there is always "the rest of the story" S I do care for you and hope that you find what it is that you have been looking for the last few years.
    [email protected]