Well just finished dinner. My oldest just loves scrambled eggs with ketchup and toast. So we made some tonight. He was so thrilled. HA! Easily made happy.
I picked up my youngest today from school and there he was with his head on the desk. :( He wasnt feeling well. So he came home and I gave him some childrens tylenol and made him a milk shake with protein and vitamins since I figured his appetite was lacking.
He looked so sad. Hes my energetic one so to see him sick and quiet is so out of character of him. Hes on the couch but I can already tell hes perking up talking to his brother.
Thanks to everyone regarding the comments about my friend situation. I did send her a message today. It just said "Love ya" and we then began to talk. I asked her how she was, shes had some health problems, she has many, she is young and declared disabled and cant work due to her health problems. She told me that she is losing weight though, but only because she has been sick. But she has been overweight and has been so wanting to loose it. So I wonder how much she has lost. I didnt ask though.
Well we did touch on the old issues. She asked me how things were going and then proceeded to be her opioniated self. At one point I told her SLOW DOWN. Cause she was just all going ahead of me. She was criticizing some things, like they werent my doing and that they were negative, and I told her "No its ok"
So all in all it went well. She hasnt waivered from her thoughts, and I guess it will have to be different between us in that regard. Me going to her to talk about certain things. I asked her about a guy she had gone out with a few times, she is still in contact with him. And they are hoping to meet up. They havent seen one another since July! So it wasnt as bad as Id thought it would be talking to her. Just had to take that step. And just know that some areas I dont need to go to her with for the time being.
I also wanted to comment to Barnacle about the retreat places in Cali. Yes I have been to several myself. Im looking more along the lines of a solo type deal.
I have a friend who is a Hardcore rock climber. He and a partner would trek out for a few days and climb scary mountains( Ive seen pics, its Nuts!) Anyways, the type of climbing where he sleeps on this little fold out bed thing on the mountain! Eeeks. But he would always come back and talk about it being the times where he could feel Gods presence, Be still. He comes from a christian background like myself and has stopped going to church, but he always would reconnect during these trips out. Where there is nothing around you but Sky and Nature.
Thats more of what im talking about. Not a group retreat with a cabin and singing songs with a bunch of people. Im saying more solo or a buddy. But some place where you can have stillness and quite, time to reflect. My boss has gone to a place like that. BUt it was really nice and you pay and they have exercises for you to do alone and all this stuff. She said it was wonderful, but Im sure it cost an arm and a leg. Something more catered to the wealthy.
Ill find something Im sure, the way things are going with me doing new things and my new year start being pretty positive. Im sure Ill come up with something.
There are so many things I want to do and try, and just not enough time to do so. So have to take it one at a time, dance class is enough for now.
Went to the gym today, saw my accountability(Ill call him) buddy. He made a cheesy smile across the gym at me, the same kind I make, haha. Then he came over "Well look whos here" haha. He said "You know I have to do this" I said it was fine, its cool with me. I havent used the treadmills in awhile, but wanted some cardio but nothing major cause Im still nursing my ankle. so I had it on low speed. I watched the new people come in with the New Year. And the girl up front was showing this lady how to use the Precor machine. The lady was totally not listening to the gym instructor. It was kinda amusing to watch, cause the instructor was trying to explain, then the woman just jumped into it and started using it all weird and saying "OH WOW! OOOOOOO, OH my leg right here is sore,,, Oh Oh" And babbling really loud. She was kinda dingy. I just watched the instructor try to get a word in edgewise, and then I think she just realized it was hopeless and gave up and left the woman on her own.
Got a few new tips on doing the weights till failure. I have no clue on so much. I dont understand how a lot of developing muscles, sculpting and all that works, I need assistance and things explained. Sure I can read and learn, but along with dealing with everything else in my life and every book I read on my situation in my home life. Im too drained to get more info. Prefer it laid out to me at this point. Just set me up a routine, go thru it with me once, then leave me a copy and Im good. :)
I felt sorta weird when I got home from work today. I think its just due to hormones, PMS, and I had no real appetite today which was odd. I didnt eat lunch until I got home from work, But had a few pretzels and cookies at work. So if I dont eat well I can get a lil weird anyways.
Was just thinking about my brain. How it works, how things interfere with our emotions and thoughts, and how sort of freaky that is. That we can all be so unstable due to so many factors in the world.
Well I dont feel like going all into that topic right now. Gonna head out.
Later