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Thu Sep 07 2006

It catches me by surprise. I will be walking across the room and think I see Indigo sleeping in her chair out of the corner of my eye. Or if Stormy’s dog bed happens to be down stairs (coincidently it is very close to the color Indigo was) and I don’t have my glasses on I will mistake it for Indigo curled up on the ground basking in a patch of sunlight from the window.

In these cases my heart jumps into my throat and I’m trapped in a crying jag for about 15 minutes. I’ve been caught in this trap twice so far this morning, and as a result my sinuses are angry with me and making themselves known.

I’ve been splitting my time between laundry and homework this morning, and this always seems to happen as I’m coming down the stairs from changing a load of laundry. I’m starting to consider re-arranging the furniture in order to not catch her chair out of the corner of my eye from key positions around the downstairs of the house. I don’t know how much more of the crying I can take today.

I want my dog back, and while my head knows that won't happen--nobody has told my heart yet.

6 Comments
  • From:
    FutureCat (Legacy)
    On:
    Thu Sep 07 2006
    RYC: At least you're getting a clean house out of it! :-)


    It's always tough to lose a pet (in whatever way) - they so quickly become part of your life, and they leave a big hole when they're gone.

    ^ ^
    00
    =+=
    ^
  • From:
    Welshamethyst (Legacy)
    On:
    Thu Sep 07 2006
    I'm sorry, Alli. I wish there was some magic way to get over it but there isn't. I lost Einy 3 years ago and I still get choked up sometimes.


    (((((HUGS)))))
  • From:
    Pragmatist (Legacy)
    On:
    Thu Sep 07 2006
    It is so sad when we lose a beloved pet, and we never ever forget that personality.

    Rowena and I both cried buckets when I had to put down Squinchie, and I still miss him.

    Love.
  • From:
    Dananarama (Legacy)
    On:
    Fri Sep 08 2006
    Sounds the same as when our family dog died recently. I wasn't living at home but mum said she kept thinking she saw him trott past the kitchen door, or asleep on his chair.....

    But you can keep Indigo with you forever in your heart - and the best thing is nothing can take that away from you :o)
  • From:
    Cpthereturn (Legacy)
    On:
    Fri Sep 08 2006
    *hugs*

    cuty xx
  • From:
    Kaliko88 (Legacy)
    On:
    Sat Sep 09 2006
    I know how it is. It's only been three weeks since losing Kenda. It's the little changes in the daily routine that are the constant reminder. I keep expecting to find him on top of my monitor.

    I'm glad there was so much love with Indigo.

    >^..^<