Preacher Man "Do either you or your spouse have a calling on your life?"
Me " I dont know? Like meaning what God wants us to do?"
"Yes" Said the preacher man "You know like preaching, singing, teaching, that sorta thing"
You know it has been ages since someone had this discussion with me?
I answered " Yes my husband wanted to be a Youth Pastor, work in Youth Ministries. I had always cared for children and wanted to become a foster parent. And somewhere it all fell apart and things went way off track."
Preacher Man said "I Thought So. I have found that if 2 persons love each other, and return to where they need to be with the lord, they fall deeper in love than they ever were. the callings on your lives, satan wants to prevent,
that is the problem. hubby's unresolved issues, may be the calling he is rejecting.If we fail to mind God, we lose the inner peace."
"Remember the inner peace you once had Sparkler? Do You want It Back?"
"Yes" I said.
Preacher Man "Say you had that peace back in your heart. If you talk to the one that tempts you it will leave. In every case ive been involved in, it wiorked exactly that way"
"you, are responsible only for your walk with the lord, your soul, your spiritual condition, is the most important part. Thats why in the beginning of our talk, I said God must be #1."
"Can I ask you a question?" He said
" Would you trade your feelings for another man, for the true inner peace, you once had ?"
"No" I said. " had that peace mainly before I met my husband, it dwindled each year after I was with him"
Preacher Man "Do you know why it dwindled?"
Me "Yes because husband and I didnt have a Godly relationship from the beginning."
Preacher " You have a great battle going on inside of you"
Me "Yes I do daily"
Preacher "It sounds like he is carrying quite a load. A lot of unresolved issues. The thing I am trying to say (Not condoning his actions)He has a great battle inside also. Remember Jonah? He rejected Gods plan and suffered. your hubby will never have true happiness, and be whhat he should be, without minding God. Inside, he is miserable,it shows on the outside, in his actions. Know what I mean?"
"Get back to your relationship with God first. Then consider your marriage. When you are in line with God you will be a different person as will he. Search out God in your life. Alone, married, divorced, sick, or well...... theres nothing like the lord"