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I hate being told \"No I dont have an anger problem, but do you have a infidelity problem? Maybe I have an anger problem when my wife talks to INK\"\r

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I feel so alone right now.\r

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GOd here I am, back and forth, back and forth. ANd I just dont know what to do.

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Sparkler No More Drama

:(Sat Jan 05 2002

Sparkler
No More Drama

:(
Sat Jan 05 2002