I really am not a big fan of seeing movies on video, prefer the movie screen experience, and some movies just have to be seen on the big screen you know?
I had seen the cast on MTV with Carson daily a month or so prior to the release. Was interesting seeing Sean Astin again. He was a big teen actor in the 80s back when I had a tremendous crush on Johnny Depp. Sean Astin was the asthmatic child star in GOONIES if you dont recall. Now hes all grown up. Played Frodo's buddy. Whats the name again? Sam?
Anyways, the movie floor was so wet my boots slid. I couldnt keep them in place. EWWWW?
I had watched on MTV how they had filmed in New Zealand. How one becomes like family filming such a movie. How Liv Tyler was really the only female that played much a larger role and was like one of the guys with the rest of them all. And how they had filmed all 3 movies at once. And now we get to wait for one each year.
So I liked it. It was quite suspenseful for me. I am one of those people who cant sit still and pound whoever is with me and say "Go Go Run, oh look out!" at such a movie. Man those poor people were constantly chased and had my heart in a tizzy!
So there was a scene where they are getting all the nasty gross creatures ready for battle. Slamming war paint and helmets on their heads.
This was all occuring down deep into the earth.
So I sat there, I think some weird thoughts at times. Something is stimulated in my brain and I go to another place. I feel like people dont get this. Do others do this?
But I got all wierded out. I havent been weirded out like this since I saw the movie "Kiss the Girls" many many years ago.
So I suddenly began to think of Hell. Began to think about what its like. About what Ive learned in church, and from Bible studies, the word studies on what it means. I thought about Spiritual Warfare. The bible speaks of this often. How their are unseen forces at work (Demons and Angels) There is a popular piece of artwork often seen in Christian stores. It shows a father praying over his son who is asleep in bed at night, and behind it all there are forces waging battle that he cannot see.
Just a reminder that things are not as we may see them. We cannot see what is behind things in the spiritual realm.
So I started to get all freaked inside. Wondering about hell, wondering about eternal hell. Wondering about these creatures in the film, thinking of them as demons.
Imagining an eternity living with such things. The fear, the torment, the constant torture inflicted by them.
Sorry for those who think Im a nut case, oh well, this is how my mind works at times.
I left the movies that night. H and I were driving. And I was silent, and I said what the hell. And shared with him what thoughts came to my mind. I dont like to share such things to often like this, cause Im afraid my Christianity of faith will be judged. Like why do I dwell on such things. BUT THIS IS ME.
So I told him. He said "WOW" and I just let it roll. I knew hed probably give me some pat Christian answer, which isnt wrong, but it doesnt satisfy me either. I like to talk, elaborate, explain, understand" His answer was "S, I have a hard enough time worrying about you and myself to think about such things" Which for him Im sure is true.
But for me it isnt.
See I ask things in my head like "So if Adam and Eve were the first humans. And then they had 2 sons, then who did there sons marry and have children with? Obviously it was their mother? Or sisters? So where did incest become wrong or sin? Why was it ok then and not now,, and I just go on.
H once again said "Umm Wow, that is a good question, I dont know about that one"
And then he said to me "What would it matter S? The answers?"
I said I want to understand such things. I question my God and how he works at times. I hate having such convos. I feel people will think I have a lack of faith. I dont doubt my relationship with God. I just question how my God works.
Anyways, we had to stop the convo. He was telling me about Gods Grace and forgiveness and told me that I dont have to be perfect. That wasnt even what I was trying to cover with him.
I was trying to discuss my exsistance. Being human how its tough, having fleshy worries and desires, and Godly ones. And how I have such a hard time with the two.
Anyways, I went to sleep that night. That AM was very stressful. I went back to sleep and had the most intense dream. It felt like I was in a movie. I just woke up and grabbed some paper and wrote down the dream. It was incredible.
So ummm heres what happens to Sparkler when she sees a movie.
Dang brain cant shut it off ya know?