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Sparkler's High
Mon Dec 17 2001

:::giggles:::


You know Ive felt crappy this weekend. Today I was feeling pretty low.


I crawled into my bed with my unwashed head all getting icky, my hair getting all frizzy.


In my Pajamas all day with a headache.


Made a cup of my fave Black Licorice tea, popped 2 Tylenols then laid down in my bed watching some Halmark film of a women who goes to the past from the future and is trying to find some ruby ring.


I finally got up then and showered.


Got dressed, it was time to go grocery shopping. And get myself looking decent.


So I gave in, I am weak, the voices called me!


I walked down the isle and there they were staring at me. I tried to resist, Ok no I didnt, I headed straight for the cookie isle first thing at Albertsons.


I zeroed in on these cookies. OMGosh. I got these Chocolatier European Biscuits ( American translation? Chocolate Wafer cookies) BUT they are so good. They come in these tiny boxes with very few inside, but mmmmm they are tasty. Nothing like those pastel peach and pink mothers wafer cookies I tell ya.


I drove home and actually became a cook tonight. Ok ok so we do eat, but Im the queen of easy to make meals. So tonight I made fried chicken and some pasta.


Kids were really happy and both wanted seconds. I started to feel better also. Tylenol, dinner, and Now THE COOKIESSS!


I kid you not, cookies are drugs to me. I stay away from them as best as I can, but now and then I weaken. But damn do I feel good now! My belly is all full and my milk mustache is happily in place.


Im feeling a bit goofy, HA!
Punish me? I was the bad cookie girl!


8 Comments
  • From:
    HuggerTeam (Legacy)
    On:
    Mon Dec 17 2001
    `safely gives you a hug if you want one`

    Everyone Needs A Hug,
    Angel and GodsMelody for the HuggerTeam
  • From:
    Nova (Legacy)
    On:
    Mon Dec 17 2001
    Hey I think I have the book that goes with that website! :o)
    Hope you are doing well!
  • From:
    Shellybien (Legacy)
    On:
    Mon Dec 17 2001
    sadly I know those emotinol abuse signs..all too well.
  • From:
    SHiNe (Legacy)
    On:
    Mon Dec 17 2001
    lMbO* We should start a club,

    We could call it
    'Mother's For Easy Make Meals'

    I'm the same way, mac-n-cheese with dogs is my specialty, till the rug-rats start hounding me for some down home cookin'!
    Your dinner sounds scrumptious though!

    The info on emotional abuse is really informative..I was in a bad relationship for round 10 years, and I'm kind of amazed at all the qualities listed there that applied to my situation...perhaps the reason it never worked?

    sIgH* I'm babblin on, have a lovely eve!

    sHiNe*
  • From:
    Celandra (Legacy)
    On:
    Mon Dec 17 2001
    Good words to remember. It's also good to remember that the abuser, knowing that you NOW know all these things, is very resourceful and will ALWAYS find new and previously unused ways to achieve these same goals. They're a clever lot.
  • From:
    Sable (Legacy)
    On:
    Mon Dec 17 2001
    Hiya Sparkler---

    I love the bathroom!! Very impressed---I don't think I could have pulled that off.

    I hope you are feeling better. You sounded like me earlier last week--wanting to crawl up and die. Don't you hate days like that?? I guess it can't always be good though. Remember, the Lord never puts more on your shoulders than you can handle.

    Hugs,
    Sable
  • From:
    Celandra (Legacy)
    On:
    Tue Dec 18 2001
    Your frustration is quite normal. I know hearing that doesn't make it any easier to deal with. But hopefully knowing that at least one woman, namely me, thinks the self-improvement, the counseling and the soul-searching was ultimately worth the tears, frustration and confusion (although I did have my doubts at the time), will help you through this low time. Looking back now it really WAS worth the trip that I wouldn't have missed for the world. My life is finally what I'd hoped it would be. I am confident yours will be too.
  • From:
    Celandra (Legacy)
    On:
    Tue Dec 18 2001
    Your frustration is quite normal. I know hearing that doesn't make it any easier to deal with. But hopefully knowing that at least one woman, namely me, thinks the self-improvement, the counseling and the soul-searching was ultimately worth the tears, frustration and confusion (although I did have my doubts at the time), will help you through this low time. Looking back now it really WAS worth the trip that I wouldn't have missed for the world. My life is finally what I'd hoped it would be. I am confident yours will be too.