Dear lover,

I miss the old us. I miss being madly in love. I miss when you couldnt keep your hands or your eyes off me.

There was a time when you made me feel like I walk on air. We used to make love constantly. You took pictures of me. You put thought into your gifts. You took me on dates.

But we have hurt each other so much now. You slapped me. You cheated on me.

I lied about my sobriety.

I cheated to get back at you... you just dont know.

We hurt each other with words. We have no more passion. There are times when I hate you.

We have become the fighting parents to our child I always promised myself I would never become. We never make love anymore. You barely sleep in the same bed as me. We dont laugh or cuddle or touch each other anymore.

You drink and drink and drink. You dont care about the way you look anymore.

I love you. I miss you. But I miss the way it was. Im terribly terribly afraid we will never be in love the same again. It scares me to death.

I want to go through with this marriage but not like this.

What can I do?

Love,

Me