It’s been a strange few days. My head has been in a funk, I suspect from all the antihistamines I’ve been popping. Monday I popped so many that I’m sure I looked stoned to everyone around me. I felt completely disconnected from my body; it was like I was looking at myself from the outside. I’m sure my teachers thought I was doing an impression of a glazed doughnut.
Boy I hope whatever is blooming right now gets done quickly!
I also suspect all these antihistamines have been neutralizing my antidepressant. Emotionally I feel very much like I did when I was off of them for a while about a year ago. I’m having a difficult time finding it in me to really care about anything but sleeping. Fortunately I have my classes and my family to drag myself out of bed and function somewhat in my world. If it weren’t for those things there is no doubt in my mind that I would stay in bed all day.
Hubby is taking off in a few days for a while. It feels like he is gone more than he is home. I know that is not the case, but we see him so infrequently when he is home it feels like he is gone all the time. I’m really hoping that this changes soon. I’m not holding my breath for it, but I am hoping for it. At least I’ve had lots of practice playing the part of a single parent, so it isn’t the culture shock it would be if he were to suddenly leave after being here constantly.
Well, it’s time to go try sleeping for the night. Wish me luck!