I’m about to head out to meet Molly to see Detective Pikachu in the theater. Not really looking forward to the movie or anything, but I just wanted to get out of the house and force myself to not think about all the regrets and heartbreak I’m going through right now.
I’ve been going back and forth a lot this week in my mind about whether or not I should tell P how I feel about him and let him decide what we should do next. Or just don’t say anything and do my best to maintain contact with him and possibly be there if/when it doesn’t work out with this girl he’s seeing. Or if I should just let our text conversations slowly dissolve until we stop talking to each other, and just let it be. I’m super impatient and I really just want to know what he thinks so I can either focus my energy on him… or on getting over him. But, I think he’s a bit more sensitive and reserved and I think it might turn him off if I told him how I felt now, now that he’s made it clear he’s seeing someone else. Even though he DID kind of do the same thing with me when I started seeing N…. what to do?? Maybe I’ll ask Molly today.
Going to see some condos/townhouses tomorrow with Cathy. I’m totally not into buying a house right now. But, I’ll keep going through the motions. I honestly don’t know what I want anymore.