I don’t know how I made it through this week. I’ve been so depressed about N and P that I can barely function! Thankfully, it’s been a very quiet week at work and everybody has mostly left me alone. And Shane has been out from Wednesday through Friday, so I haven’t had to constantly be focused on some type of work. I’m thankful for that. I really am. All I really had to do all week was update the PAT document.
Today, I asked P if he had another date set up with the girl he met on Match and he said they just saw each other last night and will probably see each other next week. I feel really sad and jealous. He did not want to see me that frequently 🙁 It hurts 🙁
I wish it was easier to trust N now. Now that I know he’s lied about something so big. And even if I could get past the lies… I’d still have to deal with his ex harassing me and his daughter visiting sometimes. I never wanted that part. That’s why divorced men and men with children have become dealbreakers for me. No matter what I do, it’s going to hurt a lot.