Mar 302009
 March 30, 2009  Posted by at 12:00 am Uncategorized 2 Responses »

Ok so I had a weak moment and gave in well not a weak moment but an entire weak night, Saturday was the event at the casino in Erie that the company paid for and as i am not a big gambler I stopped at the bar with a co worker for a drink and there was an ashtray and people sitting at the bar smoking,(PA does not allow smoking in most public buildings except for casinos) too strong of a trigger i gave in, I so enjoyed it but am still paying for it had a headache all day yesterday i blame it on the overdose of vodka that still might have been some of it but it was the smoking i was sick all day yesterday I did not even stay there for breakfast i just wanted my couch so i came home to suffer, never again I am not liking the smell like I used to so I have not had one since and I think that was a losson to stay away from them my cravings are almost gone well still there but just not as strong I am controlling them better now….

I looked outside this morning and actually saw snow that is soo wrong but now it is almost gone i need spring my Harley is crying to get out and soon..

took Mom for lunch at Chili’s but brought most of it home I will take it for work tomorrow this will save me from going for grocerys today so i can just keep feeding logs into the fire

Enjoy life


Mar 212009
 March 21, 2009  Posted by at 12:00 am Uncategorized 4 Responses »

I don’t know who invented the cigarette but they did a good job of addicting people and keeping them there I am on day 4 and am still smoke free I have not noticed a difference but from what I have read the first day you stop your body begins to somewhat heal from the damage caused by smoking, I figured during my life so far I have smoked approximately 410,250 cigarettes LOL i have a lot more time on my hands to think about it, I think that is quite enough, I am determined, I still have a lot of triggers when I want a smoke but I fight through them it is not getting any easier but then again it has only been 4 days but it is my time I can’t wait to say it has been 4 weeks then I think I will be more sure I can do it right now it is still hour to hour and fighting the constant urge to light one up. I must do this I can do this. Some wise guy at work laid a cigarette on my lunch box at work don’t know why either to tease me or give me a little relief “been a little cranky” but i pitched it, I still have 1/2 a pack in my desk drawer and it has stayed there I don’t want to have to go back to day one it has been too hard getting this far.and i know if i smoke just one i am done……..


Mar 172009
 March 17, 2009  Posted by at 12:00 am Uncategorized 2 Responses »

I got my remote start installed today they said 3 hours but they had it from 10:00 this morning till 5:00 but no big deal Mom and I went and did some shopping then i brought her home and was just lazy and did a little yard work till it began raining by then they had it done, it is really cool I love it and i can see how great it will be during the winter…

now for the big step, while I was in Mexico i brought home 4 cartons of cigarettes they were super cheap even after paying Texas tax on it so now I see the price has sky rocketted for them sooo I took the decision to try to quit beginning tomorrow I have many doubts about quitting how do you give up a 40 year old habit plus the nicotine addiction, at least i lost a lot of weight since getting my dentures i hear you gain weight during the process i don’t know if I can but i do know it is my time I am going to try the patch first to see how that works, I no longer want to be a slave to which will now be a $10.00 per day habit. i have not told anybody as if i fail i don’t want anybody to know I failed, I decided to keep record of my attempt and progress here, this way I can read back and maybe it will help to read my feelings, I have high hopes I am sure it will be for the better i know nothing good can come from smoking cigarettes only good can come from quitting. I know many people who attempted and failed I will keep this to myself untill I know if I can get a better grip on quitting than the grip smoking has on me


Mar 152009
 March 15, 2009  Posted by at 12:00 am Uncategorized 3 Responses »

All is going well with me work is busy but no so that we can work overtime but that is Ok my budget is set up for a 40 hour paycheck so it is all good only one more day till my weekend, I might work Tuesday at work we had one year accident free so the company is sending us on a weekend in Erie we can chose 3 packages 1) indoor water park, 2) skiing package 3) casino package, I of course chose the casino package they are giving up $100.00 credit to gamble with, then the really nice awards dinner and then an overnight stay it is all a good package for the family I will just be going myself as usual but still it should be a good time especially if I win a little. it is the weekend of the 30th and since I am scheduled to work weekends I need to work 2 of my off days to make them up so maybe, However the weather people are calling for a beautiful day Tuesday so i will just wait and see……


Mar 092009
 March 9, 2009  Posted by at 12:00 am Uncategorized 2 Responses »

I think winter is finally coming to an end Saturday it was actually 70 degrees reminded me of being in Mexico a couple weeks ago I have had my fill of cold weather it must be cause i am getting older but the cold weather this year has really got me down, but better days are ahead. I got my new truck, well not actually new it is a 2003 but low miles and runs great am happy with it.

Today is my Saturday so nice the weekend is finally here i need to visit the dentist office and then get a new key made for my truck I have to have it done at the Ford dealership because it needs a chip programmed into it, then Mom wants to buy me a remote start system for it but maybe next week i will get that installed so i will have that for next winter it will be so nice to start my truck from inside to warm it up for work in the morning, speaking of work, I am still working although freight has really slowed down no unusual with the economy the way it is I am just hoping it stays good enough to keep my employed but time will tell.

It is 7:20 and still dark outside hard to get used to but I really enjoy that longer daylight in the evening mornings don’t matter that much to me as I am at work anyhow but after work it will be better that is if it ever quits raining, I need to take the Harley out bad I charged the battery and cleaned all the winter crap off and polished it all up now I just beed a beautiful spring day to go for a ride..

Enjoy Life