Devotion and Detachment

Reading Tuesdays with Morrie does not haunt me that much i expected. Perhaps, if you really live with love, most of his words would only remind you what you already know and what you always hold.

But still, he reminds me sth i’ve never thought of, or sth i’ve overlook, or sth i’ve doubted for long. Let me introduce all these ideas one by one.

The first one i would like to quote is about Devotion and Detachment.
Yes, that’s certainly interested me.

Devotion :
The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning.

Detachment:
Detachment doesn’t mean you don’t let the experience penetrate you. On the contrary, you let it penetrate you fully . That’s how you are able to leave it… If I die in the middle of a coughing spell like I just had, I need to be able to detach from the horror, I need to say, ‘This is my moment.’… I don’t want to leave the world in a state of fright. I want to know what’s happening, accept it, get to a peaceful place, and let go.

My little reflection:
I notice devotion to what doesn’t really matter, rather is the act of devotion itself valued. But now besides love, i would like to find out sth that worths me to fight with all my life and to make it as my vocation. Before, i’m always afraid of detachment… but sometimes, i seek detachment… and i could find an explanation for that. Now… i believe detachment does not mean no feeling at all, rather it means after understand and penetrate fully with feeling, i would have room to stay detached. In fact, this happens to me when talking about love affairs with my friends. Not that i become 麻木, but i accept it (accept its rational and irrational parts) and find ways to approach it better.

有時候,重看自己的日記原來幾特別…
上年的三月也是depression 期…(睇番… 先知原來自己都灰得幾徹底…)
但幸好… 朋友的支持讓我撐過去了.

I’m not quite prepared to get involved in busy life yet…
但惜別會星期五就要上場,今日拍左少少片… 今晚都唔知會拍到幾多點…
仲有片頭片尾… 繁重的後期製作… 我突然感到害怕…
我也不知怕什麼… 莫名其妙的害怕… 我想… 逃…

人生在世,就要面對逃無可逃的責任.
吳明說:這是中國特有的憂患意識…

p.s. 呀… 星期一晚02 級社諮詢,接著是他們投票期… 要守票站等… 仲有星期二OCamp 傾莊… 天… 好想逃…