my much needed first online diary entry

6/8/00: My much needed first online diary entry
This is my first diary entry and I have been wanting one very much lately, a lot has been going on. I am 15 years old, a female, I live in USA. Yesterday was the last day of school for the 9th grade, my first year in high school, and boy, did I screw up a lot. I have had so much going on and I screwed up with attendance and my grades. It’s not that I’m stupid, I’m not the smartest, either, but just so tired. I do not sleep very well and I am exhausted all of the time, the more sleep I get, the harder it is for me to wake up!!! I have been struggling with an eating disorder for a while now, currently it’s bulimia, my family and counselors know about it now and aren’t really doing anything, I am going through counseling with some family, I smoke, I have skipped school, lost my virginity and started trying drugs all this last year, etc. I have a large very disfunctioned family, divorcing parents, a twin sister, older half sister and a bunch of steps, my closet family member is an alcoholic, we have a lot of mental health issues in our family. I want out of all of this so much but I have to become 18 soon, I’m not ever going to try to kill myself (again) but as soon as I’m old enough to legally move out and have a life the way I want it,… please feel free to email me or comment on this entry. As a good friend has told me: Love in life, family and friends 🙂 Take Care

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