Another Day Has Come

For a while now, doing some research on my beliefs as a Seventh-day Adventist since 1999, I am working on my next blog. I have also been snuggling with Bing Crosby the Cat more as he wants to have more “mommy time.” I have learned to put down what I am doing to give Bing his attention. How he grabs my attention is his cuteness, or he comes up to me. He is very good at telling me what he wants. With that said, about Bing, my blog has not been posted yet. I am still in the first stages. I have gotten a notebook to write my blogs in longhand before typing them up in Microsoft Word to compile my thoughts into the best-written blog as possible, and I am just taking my time in doing this having dialysis done three times a week, with any scheduled appointments, and what is necessary to do during the day to get my day started. I have had little time to write in my diary this month. I also have my marathon shows to watch when I am home. With Dr. Phil on now at 3 PM CST, I watch him and Judge Judy at 4 PM. I just realized yesterday that Dr. Phil is on at 4 PM on another channel, but I have decided to stick with watching him at 3 PM. It seems to work better even though I am still not used to the change. This is one change I have not gotten down yet. What happened was that Dr. Phil and Ellen were flipped. Ellen used to be on at 3 PM, and Dr. Phil used to be on at 4 PM. The shows have been reversed. At first, I thought it was an error that the cable company made, but it was wasn’t an error after all.

Once in a while, I take time to write my thoughts in “real-time,” and this is happening right now. I have a few minutes to write before DKF get here to help me with personal cares and get me ready to go to the dialysis center for treatment. If I could tell others what happened yesterday morning, I would. It will have to wait until later. Yes, today is dialysis days. I will be spending three and a half hours there and the rest of the afternoon is all mine and Bing’s. Dialysis is going smoothly once again. I play day by day by ear now because I never know what is going to happen and I do not like having my hopes rise and fall because I was mistaken about something and my heart set to high.

Life Goes On No Matter What

            It has been a while since I have written in my diary.  My last entry was August 22, 2019.  I have been a busy gal and August was a rough month for me for dialysis.  I have survived the rough month with help from the doctors, nurses, and techs at the dialysis center helping to resolve what issues I had with the catheter during dialysis.  From April 24, 2019 when I officially started dialysis in the hospital to August 28, 2019 I had my catheter replaced once so far.  My fistula that was placed in November 2016 stopped working properly after ten months after placement and then the graft that was placed in July 2019 stopped working properly a few days after placement when a clot was found.  I have been using a catheter since April 24, 2019 and they need to be replaced from time to time.  I plan on seeing about getting a graft placed in my left arm as soon as it is feasible to do so and that will be the third time I have had a procedure done for placement for hemodialysis.  My blood is thicker like many others out there so placing a graft may show that it will not work at all and I will have to continue to use the catheter.  My doctor told me that placing another graft can be put on hold for now.  I am on Warfarin right now to thin the blood and the doctor is keeping an eye on my INR/PROTIME through blood tests every week.  The numbers shown in the blood test allow the doctor to determine the amount of Warfarin I take.  Right now I am taking 4 mg on dialysis days and 5 mg on non-dialysis days.  I have not heard from the doctor or nurses from dialysis about my dosage being changed for the week yet. Since this is only Saturday, I may hear something today when I go in for dialysis.  If not, the dosage stays the same.

            Since I have not been writing since August 22, 2019, I feel I have a lot to share in one diary entry.  Time is short right now as personal cares is looming close to time that my thoughts will have to wait for a while until I get a chance to write again.  I do get up early enough to do what I want to do online and on my computer each morning and I giving loves to Bing Crosby the Cat is a given as I give him attention also.  I have not been taking time for God each morning and evening like I should each day lately and that is something I need to get back to.  My days are better when God is included or I include him in my life.  He is the reason why I wake up every morning as well as have the best health a woman with ESRD who is on dialysis three times a week.  I should not be forgetting God!  In so many words, as I write in my diary here, I am sharing my love for God with others despite the fact that there are some debatable issues here as the truth is being told here.  I have to go for now and I will be back again as soon as I can.

            Life has been great otherwise.  Dialysis does not stop me from living a full life.  I have my days with aches and pains, moans and groans, anxiety and panic, but I believe that those days are private now than public nowadays.  Life is great!  God is good to me and I am thankful for the days He gives me even though some days may be considered dreary.  Yes, I can smile through the aches and pains plus find a reason to laugh through the hard times.  That is the way I am and I have friends, workers, and family who make me smile no matter what happens in life.  I am human and God made me the person  I am for a reason and I will share my life with others any way I can.