I have been up and down the past few hours.  In fact I had awakened between 11:30 PM – 1:30 AM feeling something was not right.  I had a feeling that put me in a state of I needed to be sure about.  I got on Facebook and the feeling I had really floored me in a way that my heart ached and I wanted to cry.  I had a feeling that someone had unfriended me on Facebook and I was right.  It was a right I really hoped I was wrong but being right disappointed me even more.  What is happening to Facebook?  It used to be friendly and a happy place to post.  Now, it has become a wonderful place of bashing and gnashing people to hurt them and very opinionated.  It seems that political parties are saying their opinions where others know or assume that you are of one party or another.  I am not going to deny that I am Republican, but as far as Democrats go, I do not care what political party you belong to.  That is how my heart goes.  I vote for the best and I do it straight down the line and if I need advice, I will go to a family member who is more politically inclined than I am and go from there by what was told to me and follow my heart where God wants me to go.  As a Christian I find it hard sometimes because I do get upset easily  Anyway, at the time I got on Facebook and saw that a high school colleague did unfriend me, I felt very hurt because I really care for this person.  I decided to write a post saying “woke up around 1230 – 1 AM this morning with a feeling. Came on here on Facebook for a while. My heart is aching right now as well as the need to cry.” and then I wrote this “If people do not like what I post on MY PAGE they have the right to have their opinion. Unfriending people because of politics, religion, or sex orientation is absolutely no reason to unfriend someone on Facebook or any social media site. I believe that Facebook has been, for a long time now, a social bashing of others just to hurt someone somehow. It is sad. I have been on Facebook for a long time now.

MY PAGE is MY PAGE. What I share is what I share for a reason. I have seen it all now. I do not care what political party you stand for, what religion you are, what your sex orientation is. I am a child of God and I do not always understand what happens to me or anyone but would never unfriend someone without an explanation. I wish FB had a reason.

I am talking about a high school colleague. I do not know why I am sad and my heart aches over this one person. I believe that friendships are what they are. If it is a true friendship, outside of Facebook, those friends will be there for you. I have some true friends outside of Facebook, and I am glad of that. Thank God as well as praise Him for EVERYTHING!!”


It Has Been A While

I know it has been a while since I have written my diary. It has been either busy or time just flew by. I have been having dialysis every Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday like clockwork. I have been having dialysis as an outpatient since May 7, 2019. I have been having some issues with the catheter but the nurses and techs know what they are doing. On July 12, 2019 I had a procedure done to have a fistula placement but when I woke up I had learned that I had a graft placed instead. So, since July 12, 2019, my arm has been healing. The graft was placed in my right arm. So please excuse my absence. I am still waiting to see how my arm heals when I see the doctor July 31, 2018.

On July 17, 2019 I had gotten a call from DKF’s husband SF telling me that she was not feeling good and needed to rest. I had gotten a call before noon and DKF was calling me to let me know that she was going to the hospital emergency room. It was not too lawn after the phone call I had gotten a text stating that she was going to be admitted into the hospital. SF had called me too let me know that they were going To be doing some tests to find out what was going on with DKF. He also said that they will keep me updated.  As the day continued, DKF texted me telling me that she had E. coli in her urine stating that there was a UTI. As more tests were done she found out that she has E. coli in her blood as well. As sick as she was it could’ve killed her if she did not call to the ER to get checked out. As of this morning she is hoping that the doctors will discharge her either Monday or Tuesday of this week. She and her husband we’re supposed to be on vacation and in Michigan for the week but she is spending the time in the hospital getting better with antibiotics. The thought of losing DKF has, crossed my mind more than once since I have learned that she could have died. I have left DKF’s illness and care in her doctor’s care as well as in God’s hands. So far I have not Heard that things were getting worse for her.

As a draw Sunday, June 21, 2019, evening to a close I am Glad to be back into the swing of things. Bing is napping in his favorite chair well I get ready to close up shop for the night in hopes to return tomorrow to write more. From July 8, 2019 through July 21, 2019 I still have more to catch up on but it is getting late and I am getting tired. I am going to say good night and God bless and come back tomorrow when I have some time free. Good night.