Just A Rough Evening??

As I sit here this evening, I do have to admit that I wish I could go to church in the morning instead of dialysis, but medical reason is one good reason to not attend church.  That is the only disappointment I have right now.  The disappointment will pass soon.  I cannot have a lot of things my way right now and I can live with what I cannot do right now.  God has a plan for everything that has taken place so far in my life since April 24, 2019. Having dialysis three times a week is crucial right now and Saturday Sabbath mornings and early afternoons isthe day I have to gofor now until. Another day opens up.  As far as my days are concerned, I have to what is necessary and live my life normally with what I can do, cannot do, and face the challenges with what strength I have from what day I face with a grateful heart that I am still alive e lives, but God can heal the hearts of a screwed wrench any day when we ask Him for help through Jesus, his Son.  Yes, I have days like this now and again and today has been one of , anthem.  In fact, I feel that the past three Fridays I have been a little down that my Sabbaths have changed for a while.  I am grateful to know another gentleman – a fellow Adventist – who works every other Sabbath Saturday at the dialysis center until later this summer.  I am not alone that my Sabbath is set on medical leave right now.

Another thing that has me bunched up in knots is the fact that I have not been writing in my diary as often as I have done last year. It began in October 2018 to the present day.  My diary at Dear Diaryhas been so broken.  Yes, I have been ill, hospitalized twice so far January and April 2019, busy with other things, but it is NOT AN EXCUSE to me.  I feel I have lost my way to writing these days.  Why have I left?  I did not leave DD, but I feel I left something when I did not write as much as I have the past couple of days.  Does anyone read my diary anymore?  I have no idea.  Anyway, I need to concentrate on something else now before retiring to bed, and when I get home from dialysis tomorrow, I will see what is going on.  Good night and I am asking for prayers for all who believe in God. Thank you.


My hair dresser P is not available right now, so I am seeing someone “new” to me.  Got my hair done by Savannah at Cost Cutters this morning just a little while ago. Sorry…no pictures today.  My hair was getting too long, and I needed a good ol’ trim before it got any longer.  I have had my hair long for a good reason in the past and I have vowed to keep my hair short from now on.  I do have to admit that I was going to let it grow long one more time, but the idea was very short lived – a minute or two thought or something like that.  Anyway, my hair is done.