Sometimes There Are Moments

Okay, I will not deny that sometimes there are moments I wish I could find the right words to express my thoughts without running into a snag along the way but I believe that is only for wishful thinking only.  I am having one of those moments now so I have to take the time to write away at a ramble to get to where I want to be and that is happening right this minute.  I am entitled to some sort of peace and private time without any noise from anywhere around me, aren’t I?  It seems that noise from the apartment above me has become monotonous lately as if being disrespected on purpose.  All day my neighbor has been dropping things left and right and bumping into her table and chairs because she cannot see behind her while driving her power chair around.  Yes, she is short – no legs – and cannot see behind her very well but…she should know for goodness sakes!  When someone drops something on their floor or a table and chairs tip over it sounds like it is going to come through and land on me sooner or later.  I still feel that the noise above me could be less during the day as well as night.  When I am reading a good book, writing in my diary or journal, watching TV, or napping in the recliner I practically jump two feet out of my own skin because I am startled.  This building has very little insulation in the walls and floors.  I guess that comes with the territory of low income housing – built cheaply but livable.  Yes, I am irritable right now.  The noise above me is continuous and it never stops.  At least my neighbor’s boyfriend has not been staying overnight lately and sleep has been better most nights.  In fact her boyfriend has not been here during the day lately for a while now.

Thinking About It Very Hard

Ahh, good evening.  What a fine day today has been.  I was able to finish the book I was reading as planned.  The book I read was “The Hanged Man’s Song written by John Sandford.  I did enjoy the book all the way through except for some swear words I am not accustomed to saying because I am a Christian.  I am at fault of not putting the book down the moment I read the first strong language but it was a very good book.  I have to watch more carefully what books to read from this forward.  I cannot be caught up too much with the worldly stuff and concentrate on my spiritual life more closely. Any time I get away from my Christian attitude and behavior I end up getting burned and hurt, and the good ol’ Devil we can Satan/Lucifer will attack me with what I weakest at and believe me being attacked by Satan is absolutely horrible.  It’s awful and it makes me feel very emotional, paranoid, and I want to hide away.  I am very observant…believe me,