Sometimes things hit a very personal note in my world and lately my world has hit a personal note where emotions have been played in all corners of my world. It stinks to be honest with you and the trust I once had with some people has been misplaced in such a fashion that my world has taken a whole new turn in my life and grinning and bearing it has been very difficult. When trust has been misplaced with people you cared about deeply it is so hard to find that trust again. Today, as silly as it may sound, I know who my true friends are and who care be trusted in my world and who can not be trusted in my world. I have been walking on a very fine line not being judgmental in my new found world of negativity being taken out of my life so I can live a positive life without too much stress and negative emotion, that I find it such a happier place to be because my world is complicated at times. With it being October now, I can not believe that the year 2008 is three months away from being over and I have been working on so hard on my personal life and getting rid of the negativity, it gets easier by the minute as days go flying by quicker and I can go to bed with less stress and fear even though this past week has been addressed as a little sad, fearful, and so many colors have played a major role in my world I can not really see straight. It is kind of funny and yet and again its not really funny at all. My world is complicated…as silly as it may sound. When I spill my heart out people get to know the real me and take me for me and no one else but me. It took a long time to love myself!
😛 is sticking out his tongue at me in regards to the phrase “Patience is a virtue”. How right is that thought or that phrase because right now I am not feeling all that patient, lol. I am okay, though. The very reason I am using the phrase tonight or today is because “patience is a virtue at the moment. I am working on changing the outlook of my dear diary blogging spot or diary — actually it is a diary more so than anything — for the winter months now that the weather for us who live in Wisconsin are going to be colder and more gloomy for several weeks. Tonight, forgetting how to change the outlook of my dear diary page just a tiny bit, I am going to be working on it bit by bit for the next few days … along with working on two other very important projects starting tomorrow if the weather is decent since my two major projects require either the internet or Power Point or both, I am looking ahead and myself definitely looking forward to my two major projects — knowing the fact that I LOVE computers and doing research which one of them does require. The Power Point project is something of my own doing in regard to my grandparents on my mother’s side of the family, and then once I get finished with that project I will be doing a Power Point project on my dad’s side of the family. The PP projects are personal and something I want to do. The one project that requires research is going to take some time so patience is a virtue. 🙂 Now I am smiling without sticking my tongue at myself, lol.