The End of April Showers ??

april shower #1

With April over and May on its way, I do have to admit that I have decided to become a little more creative in my journal here. I believe that is what happens when it comes to being available all day and all night now that I am not busy with doing homework everyday/every week anymore since February 25, 2008. I am somewhat bored, yes, but I am taking it easy, and getting help from a company called Community Solutions, helping me find a job so in the field of accounting. I did two job shadow experiences this week, on Tuesday and Wednesday, that were related to the accounting field experience, and we are waiting on one more job shadow experience to do but if that does come through, then I will begin the initial job search, which I am excited about.

6 a.m. Wednesday Morning

About five hours later I am up, dressed and ready for my day. Sleep was definitely hard to find last night and I was up practically all night. Had a couple of hours of sleep. 3 hours away from my second job shadowing experience now and I wonder how well is going to be once I get there. I just do not know right now. I am tired and I hope, in order to keep my sanity, I am not cranky or a bitch anytime today. I hate being cranky and I definitely hate being a bitch, that’s for sure. My world has been spinning and it has been spinning a lot lately and sometimes I do not know which direction I am going and thankfully I have gone forward in most cases. I am just surprised that I am even up at this hour and I wonder how many neighbors are up at this hour of the morning. I hope I get some sleep tonight or I believe I will go crazy or bonkers or both. What is happening in my world lately has been strange and somewhat unusual. Do I have this feeling that HE will try calling me today? Yes, like every morning I have that fear and thankfully the last couple of days I have had no calls from her, yay and I know that sounds mean and rude but she does not get the message not to call me. I am repeating myself all over again in regard to HE, dang! Once again Bing slept with me most of the night. He was cute while he slept. I never knew Bing as a kitten but I saw kitten in him while he slept and he was cute. He once again only left to go to the bathroom in his litter box and to eat a morsel or two of food and came back to bed to be with me. Right now, after leaving to have a morsel of food again, he is lying on the bed leaning against my pillows. Boy, I wish I had more sleep, dang, I am so tired right now.