Life in General…Now…

In retrospect, my so-called friend who is no longer a friend of mine had a comment at a friend yahoo 360 blog calling me a ding-a-ling, and honestly, it hurts my feelings but there is nothing more I can really do about this girl. This girl is no longer a friend of mine and I will NOT allow her back into my life after giving her a second chance last year after the first fight we had when in reality I gave this girl a chance that was a terrible mistake by the second fight. I know now that this girl is more unstable than I realized before and I am taking my unstable friends and beginning to walk away from them all. I do not need negativity in my life. I have not been happier with not having my ex-friend up here everyday at 4 p.m. using my computer. Like I said earlier, it is nice to have my life back in full sing even though I am still healing from being physically hurt. I was talking to a friend of mine just a bit ago and she told me that my now ex-friend has been hurt too, and I do not care how she was hurt because what she did to me was uncalled for all the way around.

Right now, at this hour of the night, my cat Bing has come alive from sleeping a lot during the day, and is being his typical catself and he is driving me crazy getting into places he has been shooed out of but is still doing what he has been told to behave himself, lol, but I love the little guy too death.

It is late and I am getting very tired — finally — with time being 12:16 a.m. in the morning of Wednesday, January 16, 2008. It has been 2008 for sixteen days now and I can not believe it is still the year 2008 after 2007 is now behind us all. WOW! Knowing that my Christmas the New Year has been not the greatest endings and beginning, I do have to admit that I am feeling a little better. With one particular person out of my life now, I have not been happier. My now ex-friend, my former friend, gone out of my life, I want her to leave me alone and she is STILL not letting go. I can not understand her and maybe that is a good thing this girl is out of my life — she is a time bomb about ready to blow anytime if SHE does not get her. SHE has pushed me so far away now that my world does not have any time left for her. SHE NEEDS HELP BIG TIME AND I AM ALREADY GETTING HELP THROUGH COUNSELING SO I CAN NOT SAY I AM NOT GETTING HELP. I am TAKING IT ONE STEP AT A TIME RIGHT NOW.

I am going to have to say good night for now and get back to all of my DD friends another day.

Another Day Has Come …

I do have to admit that another day has come and with it now being late afternoon, I feel like I have accomplished my cleaning today, with help from my cleaning lady LB, as now the bedroom looks like a bedroom more so than a storage area. I sleep in the living room because my bed is in the living room here. After my cleaning lady has come and gone, I have been doing my own thing along with the fact that i did have company over for awhile watching television and paying attention to my cat Bing. Bing has been a very good boy today, that silly cat is ALWAYS talkative when my friend CD comes up for a visit. I have not heard Bing meow so much and want attention by her only and his human mommy is just burnt toast or something not pleasant. Silly cat! I love him so … Bing knows his people, that’s for sure. Ever since I have not allowed someone up here everyday at for 4 p.m., I do have to admit that I have my life back and I do not have to worry about her calling and hearing her whiny little voice needing to get online for this and get online for that when in reality, my computer is mine and I had restrictions on my own computer because of her. All in all, I am so glad that she is out of my life in that respect because she was just a pain in my rear end before the hitting, kicking, and pushing, and pulling my hair and yanking my head had occurred in December. She was not a true friend because true friends do not beat up on other friends and get away with it … but she hasn’t really gotten away with it. Anyway, I have my life back to some degree even though I do have to admit that I am still somewhat fearful of leaving my place entirely alone. I still not feel 100% safe but getting there. I hope this little girl moves out …. she does not belong here. She has caused more trouble other than beating on me in December lately…she is just a pain in many people’s butts lately. She needs help!!

It is Tuesday, and it is now kind of boring but I have gone to class and did what I had to do. Gotta go back now so I will be back later — if not tomorrow. Bye for now.