Sep 252020

“stood on the cliffside screaming “give me a reason”… TSwift

running up the hill turned into a two week race on a flat course, no moving forward, no moving back. we always want something happening never really getting that nothing happening is what it needs to be.

today. after dog tired days of work and still getting a work out in and steps in, and meals logged and articles read. i zipped into an armful of pants long discarded due to my fatness. no greater motivation than that today.

20 lbs down. 10 to go, may turn into 15. i want to be light as a feather, mind and soul.

i hope i never go back there.

Sep 042020

it all started with getting caught wolfing down a cup of yogurt at 11pm in the hall in front of my locker at work. i felt ashamed. but i was hungry.

one look in the mirror was enough. one look from Mom and it set the ball rolling. 2 months now and down 16 lbs. want to lose 17 lbs by this sunday and be down 30 lbs by november.

i’ve decided that i want to die (when it’s my time) in good shape. i want to fit into my old jeans and wear nice blouses.

i’ve been fit my whole life but it all went to hell once i hit 50…plus the thyroid cancer and menopause kind of threw a monkey wrench at my health. that and pure laziness, stress eating, and fatigue.

fat, overweight, chunky, husky, plump…. fixable problems. eating well, actually consuming the appropriate serving, and movement- whether it be walking or exercises – aerobic/weight training is necessary to feel better, sleep better and therefore, help with weight-loss.

i just have to do it.