Dec 312010

so, i managed to get new year’s day off. very very happy about that. i’ve been thinking about resolutions. i tried make the lottery for the half marathon in manhattan but didn’t get in. there are 2 other options that i’m looking at.

i’ve already signed up for a modern dance class workshop (6 classes) at Mark Morris Dance School here in downtown brooklyn. so, this takes care of my wanting to get re-involved with the arts. first class is 1/6.

next? i really really really want to travel to europe, particularly Italy. mostly for the sunshine, food and especially for the art…Bernini’s art in particular. i want to see the old world. so, i’ll have to devise a way to fool myself into squirreling $$ away. hopefully, by the following spring, i’ll find myself on a plane headed to Florence.

i’ve already signed up (when the tragedy in Haiti hit) to give to charity, so a monthly donation is taken out of my bank account and goes to Doctor’s Without Borders. people need to be healthy before they can help themselves.

what i want to work on is giving some of my time to charity. so…i’ll look here in brooklyn for groups that need weekly volunteers.

need to work on the wiring in my head. i tend to go towards the negative lately. i’m running ragged taking care of orangehead. 7-8 different meds twice daily, making sure she eats and poops and pees and keeping a close eye on her breathing…means not being able to spend the time i want to with Mom. i have to make it short visits and i can’t ever stay overnight. i could get a pet sitter, but i just can’t trust anyone with making sure she gets her meds. her life depends on those meds and she’s beginning to get fussy about taking her pills. the entire affair is emotionally draining. i can’t do much more for her accept take her in so that they find more stuff wrong with her. at this point, i just don’t want to know.
so. i’ve been taking things one day at a time. what else can i do? i’ve prepared myself as best as i can. i listen to ALOT of music, because it’s the only thing that brings contentment these days.


i’ll be heading to Mom’s this afternoon and bringing in the New Year with her. then i’ll have to head back here so that orangehead’s meds aren’t too off timewise. hopefully, i’ll be able to get my car inspection done this AM. will head for the shower in a few and call the gas station that did it last year. funny thing. when i got out of work yesterday morning (thurs morn)…i ended up parking where i had shoveled on Monday morning. how is that for luck?! pretty cool. hopefully, i’ll be able to find parking after the inspection, but whatever, as long as i don’t have to be anywhere anytime soon, i don’t mind driving around until i find a spot.

another year gone. this one was a tough one. here’s hoping 2011 is a kinder one. be safe out there.


Dec 282010

two goals today:

1. buy winter boots. i got through sunday night wearing clogs…(not a good choice for a winter storm) and monday morning switched to my work shoes: a pair of Avia running shoes (a somewhat better choice, but still not as good as actual boots)

2. get cat food. because they don’t care that the snow drifts are 5 ft in some places. they want their breakfast, lunch, dinner, and in between snacks. that’s a cat for you. unforgiving and demanding. but what would i do without all of the attitude???

i’m surprisingly not that sore after all the shoveling i’ve done in the past 36 hours. i MUST be in shape, even though i don’t feel like i am. i shoveled a parking spot (drove around for about 1 hour looking for the lowest snow drifts) and finally decided on a spot along shore road and 88th street. tomorrow night will test my driving skills again as i have to head back to work. somehow, i have to manage to get my car inspection done before Jan 2011… why oh why did i wait for the last minute??????????????

it’ll be interesting to head back out today. i was up from sunday evening 5pm until Monday 2pm. got back up Monday night around 8pm and then fell asleep again until 4am Tues (today). i’m wodering if the abandoned car stuck at the intersection is still there. there is noway to drive on any of the side streets at they have at least 2 feet of snow. despite the scary drive into work sunday night, it kind of worked to my advantage because my car isn’t stuck on some side street waiting for the plows to do their job. i have mobility. i had the option to find parking along major driving arteries in my neighborhood, so i’ll be able to get in and out.

a few things i love about this snowstorm:
-it forces people to walk and get exercise
-it encourages people to get out and spend time with their kids and pets
-it brings out the daredevils (skiers, snowshoers, snowboarders, sledders, and folks who bring levity to the chaos)
-it brings out the good samaritans in full force

heck, i may go running today…we’ll see, i’ll bering my cellphone and take pictures.


RIP Teena Marie…she rocked it…and never really got the mainstream respect she deserved. pure talent, awesome voice that could still belt them out, check out her stint on The View. love her music. square biz was a favorite. you can’t NOT dance to that song

Dec 272010

in what is looking to be the worst winter snowfall in nyc in 6 decades…see how she swerves and fishtails and gets stuck at the exit leading to her workplace. she how her car manages to get stuck on the median between traffic going east vs. west. watch how she whips out her shovel and gets herself free. watch how she eases back and forth to finally get off the median.

see her (along with the other supremely stupid asses who went in to work) pull her weight, prove her loyalty, brazenly show her good work ethic…even if it may have caused her injury or damaged car…

holy crap.
i will never EVER drive in that kind of weather EVER again.


Dec 252010

today. i go back…or maybe, begin to look again for that little bit of dancer left inside of me. i know she’s still there, but very very neglected. i used to love going to the studio and just moving, no music. just break the silence of the space with my breath and limbs cutting through the air.

i’ve missed that. it is somewhat similar to the feeling of doing a long run early morning when the world is still asleep. quiet. still. no noise except for sneakers tip tapping on the pavement. being present in the now.

the new year begins with taking dance class.

to get in shape?
to better my posture?
to become more flexible?

sure. but mainly to revive the creative in me, to remind myself that these are where my roots lay. i need art in my life. this is where i’m most comfortable…enmeshing myself in the world of dance.