Sep 302010

protect your right to read them:

1. The Great Gatsby, by F. Scott Fitzgerald *
2. The Catcher in the Rye, by J.D. Salinger *
3. The Grapes of Wrath, by John Steinbeck
4. To Kill a Mockingbird, by Harper Lee
5. The Color Purple, by Alice Walker *
6. Ulysses, by James Joyce
7. Beloved, by Toni Morrison
8. The Lord of the Flies, by William Golding *
9. 1984, by George Orwell *
10. The Sound and the Fury, by William Faulkner
11. Lolita, by Vladmir Nabokov
12. Of Mice and Men, by John Steinbeck
13. Charlotte’s Web, by E.B. White *
14. A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man, by James Joyce *
15. Catch-22, by Joseph Heller
16. Brave New World, by Aldous Huxley *
17. Animal Farm, by George Orwell *
18. The Sun Also Rises, by Ernest Hemingway *
19. As I Lay Dying, by William Faulkner
20. A Farewell to Arms, by Ernest Hemingway *
21. Heart of Darkness, by Joseph Conrad
22. Winnie-the-Pooh, by A.A. Milne
23. Their Eyes Were Watching God, by Zora Neale Hurston
24. Invisible Man, by Ralph Ellison
25. Song of Solomon, by Toni Morrison
26. Gone with the Wind, by Margaret Mitchell
27. Native Son, by Richard Wright
28. One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest, by Ken Kesey
29. Slaughterhouse-Five, by Kurt Vonnegut *
30. For Whom the Bell Tolls, by Ernest Hemingway *
31. On the Road, by Jack Kerouac
32. The Old Man and the Sea, by Ernest Hemingway *
33. The Call of the Wild, by Jack London
34. To the Lighthouse, by Virginia Woolf *
35. Portrait of a Lady, by Henry James *
36. Go Tell it on the Mountain, by James Baldwin
37. The World According to Garp, by John Irving *
38. All the King’s Men, by Robert Penn Warren
39. A Room with a View, by E.M. Forster
40. The Lord of the Rings, by J.R.R. Tolkien *
41. Schindler’s List, by Thomas Keneally
42. The Age of Innocence, by Edith Wharton
43. The Fountainhead, by Ayn Rand
44. Finnegans Wake, by James Joyce
45. The Jungle, by Upton Sinclair
46. Mrs. Dalloway, by Virginia Woolf *
47. The Wonderful Wizard of Oz, by L. Frank Baum
48. Lady Chatterley’s Lover, by D.H. Lawrence
49. A Clockwork Orange, by Anthony Burgess
50. The Awakening, by Kate Chopin *
51. My Antonia, by Willa Cather
52. Howards End, by E.M. Forster
53. In Cold Blood, by Truman Capote
54. Franny and Zooey, by J.D. Salinger *
55. The Satanic Verses, by Salman Rushdie
56. Jazz, by Toni Morrison
57. Sophie’s Choice, by William Styron
58. Absalom, Absalom!, by William Faulkner
59. A Passage to India, by E.M. Forster
60. Ethan Frome, by Edith Wharton
61. A Good Man Is Hard to Find, by Flannery O’Connor *
62. Tender Is the Night, by F. Scott Fitzgerald
63. Orlando, by Virginia Woolf
64. Sons and Lovers, by D.H. Lawrence
65. Bonfire of the Vanities, by Tom Wolfe
66. Cat’s Cradle, by Kurt Vonnegut *
67. A Separate Peace, by John Knowles *
68. Light in August, by William Faulkner
69. The Wings of the Dove, by Henry James
70. Things Fall Apart, by Chinua Achebe
71. Rebecca, by Daphne du Maurier
72. A Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy, by Douglas Adams
73. Naked Lunch, by William S. Burroughs
74. Brideshead Revisited, by Evelyn Waugh
75. Women in Love, by D.H. Lawrence
76. Look Homeward, Angel, by Thomas Wolfe
77. In Our Time, by Ernest Hemingway
78. The Autobiography of Alice B. Toklas, by Gertrude Stein
79. The Maltese Falcon, by Dashiell Hammett
80. The Naked and the Dead, by Norman Mailer
81. Wide Sargasso Sea, by Jean Rhys *
82. White Noise, by Don DeLillo
83. O Pioneers!, by Willa Cather
84. Tropic of Cancer, by Henry Miller
85. The War of the Worlds, by H.G. Wells *
86. Lord Jim, by Joseph Conrad
87. The Bostonians, by Henry James
88. An American Tragedy, by Theodore Dreiser
89. Death Comes for the Archbishop, by Willa Cather
90. The Wind in the Willows, by Kenneth Grahame
91. This Side of Paradise, by F. Scott Fitzgerald
92. Atlas Shrugged, by Ayn Rand
93. The French Lieutenant’s Woman, by John Fowles
94. Babbitt, by Sinclair Lewis
95. Kim, by Rudyard Kipling
96. The Beautiful and the Damned, by F. Scott Fitzgerald
97. Rabbit, Run, by John Updike
98. Where Angels Fear to Tread, by E.M. Forster
99. Main Street, by Sinclair Lewis
100. Midnight’s Children, by Salman Rushdie

Harry Potter (series)by J.K. Rowling *
A Wrinkle in Time, by Madeline L’Engle *
Are You There, God? It’s Me, Margaret, by Judy Blume *
Twilight (series) by Stephanie Meyer
Forever by Judy Blume *
In the Night Kitchen, by Maurice Sendak *

*franny has read these.

visit the ALA website for more info on challenged and banned books.

Sep 292010

getting up…falling down…getting up again…

the hope of running this year’s ING NYC Marathon 2010 has been put to rest. i will cancel my entry and apply for guaranteed entry for 2011 instead.

i’ve gone through all of the ugly scenarios and can’t dispute the fact that i am under-trained, struggling to finish a 10 miler without so much pain and my body is still recovering from injuries i never fully addressed.

bottom line? there are two ways this can go:
1. i run a painful 6+ hour marathon
2. i become part of the small group with DNF by her name (did not finish)

either option sucks.
i told myself if the long runs got difficult in Sept…i’d drop out because for my first marathon, the goal was to get myself to the finish line strong. i did that. i want to finish the second one at a better time than the first.

not unachievable if i train smarter, sleep-eat- better, and train longer than i have for this one.

i hate dropping out, it will be even more painful when the day comes and i’m not part of the crowd, but deep down i know it is the right decision, the most sound decision…so…i will take a few weeks off of running, search out a training group here in my neck of the woods, and begin building up my weekly base milleage. i’ll hit the gym and crosstrain in the meantime.

while the physical part of training has been difficult, the mental part has also been equally difficult. it’s gotten to the point that i don’t even enjoy going out for a run… too much going on with family, my pets, stress of a long hard work day. work is good, it’s just physically and emotionally draining at times. and i looked for running to be the great stress reliever but it never really took on that role. i want to love putting on the sneaks and heading out. that’s how it was a few years ago. but now, it’s just another stress to add to the list. i think part of it is because i see my body faltering and this bothers me… the aging… rest assured that i’m in pretty decent shape and am able to run a solid 5k, even a 10k. i’m not fat, my legs have no fat on them and are muscular, i’ve even lost some fat on my arms… i don’t have a typical sedentary 45 year old woman’s body. i know this. and yet, i am unsatisfied that there are a lot more aches and pains involved when running now as opposed to years ago.

it’s difficult to realize that my body can’t do what it did 10 years ago without a heck of a lot more work involved. it is solid proof that time continues and will continue eventually leaving me behind.
in other more lighter news:
went to see the National at the Wellmont Theatre in NJ. opening act sounded better. a little disappointing since i really wanted to be able to hear the lead singer’s voice live…the band played WAY TOO LOUD.

will see the Local Natives at Webster Hall next month. i know they’ll sound great live. great 3 part harmonies and great drumming. looking forward to this concert.

currently reading:
Food Matters: A Guide to Conscious Eating by Mark Bittman
Life As We Knew It by Susan Beth Pfeffer (a YA book)

listening to:
Veckatimest by Grizzly Bear
The Essential Paul Simon

2012 – with John Cusack
Legion – with Paul Betany (gorgeous)
Extraordinary Measures- Brendan Fraser, Keri Russell, Harrison Ford
Magnolia – ensemble including Tom Cruise, Julianne Moore… with great song by Aimee Mann

yes. lots of doom and gloom, peppered with hope and a little crazy.

about where i am right now.

orangegirl visited the cardiologist again yesterday for a flash of the heart and bloodwork to recheck kidney values after the tweaking of the meds. bloodwork looked good, still slightly azotemic but no difference from last week. she has some mild effusion but not enough to tap. she’s eating drinking, urinating and defecating normal. slightly slower, but her respiratory rate and effort have improved.

i know she’s on borrowed time. but she’s doing okay. we take it one day at a time. that’s all we can do. i spend as much time as i can with her.


changes and more changes…

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Sep 222010
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early morning…

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Sep 212010

it’s 3:30am and i’m still up. just finished watching thurs episode of vampire diaries. i’m hating that watching tv online, especially on the cw website, is beginning to feel like watching regular tv. so many damned commercials, the same ones over and over at least 3 times…all promoting that particular networks fall season shows. i mean, c’mon…3 times? so, cw people, just so you know…i open a new window and check email…visit my diary etc and mute the volume. i don’t listen or watch until the program i was watching is back.
in shock after reading deardiary1’s new entry that only 25 diaries are updated daily. what a shocker. back in the day, 2000-2001-2 it seemed to be a writing frenzy. but, back then, there was ALOT of scandal. lots of flaming going on. i don’t miss the drama.
i do miss some of the diarists that have moved on:
i hope they’re all okay.
got the cd out that was stuck in my car stereo. was determined after getting home from work/and an errand early this Monday morning. there i was, long screwdriver in hand and my barnes and noble card. in the process, i ruined the cd and the stereo…so now i have to purchase a new one. 🙂 sucks big time, but i CAN’T live listening to the radio. radio sucks. sure, the new stations start out great- limited commercials and cool b-sides, then after a year, they seem to go into million commercials mode and repeating of the same damned songs. i hate radio. the only radio i can stomach is the college stations. and i don’t get such good reception for those. so, i’ll probably purchase a car stereo that allows me to plug in my iPod. will go shopping tomorrow to Best Buy since the Geek Squad can do the installing. while i’m there, i’ll check out the new Nano iPod.
orangehead will visit the heart doctor at my job today. hopefully, her heart hasn’t gotten any worse. there have only been small signs and for short durations of respiratory distress. no open mouth breathing and her color stays pink. just a slight increase in rate and effort that will last 15-20 min and then she settles. we’ll see what the cardiologist says. i hope they do rads as well. made sure that the last two blood results were faxed to the hospital and i’ll bring the last echo report with me. will leave early to avoid crazy traffic. at least it won’t be hot out… she stresses easily and the hot weather makes it worse.
will go to see The National this week. not as excited as i was when i bought the tix. marathon training is sucking the life out of me. not enjoying running as much this time around. too much going on with family, work, pets… did the required 16 miler this past friday (ran 12 in the AM and 4 in the PM at the gym) long runs are basically to push your legs when they are tired. did well. the park was a mess on account of the “tornado” that blew through park slope. branches everywhere. i ran the perimeter of the park instead of following the trail inside. just not motivated although i can tell my legs are getting stronger and my body is changing. i’m mentally exhausted. not sure how to get that spark back that i used to feel when i ran. i am working 12 hour overnight shifts so maybe that has something to do with it. when i ran the first one, i worked at a “desk” job and for 8 hours. had plenty of time to sleep and eat well. now? i’m older, more physically tired, and haven’t been eating as well as i should (mostly due to laziness). ah well, today, i’ll run 8 miles, check out car stereos, do food shopping, and take my orangegirl to the doc.

newest iTunes download:

Peter, Bjorn, and John – Young Folks (a catchy, quirky, great running tune)

it’s 4:05 am. time to head to bed.

Sep 142010

passing on the gym, just walked to library and back (40 blocks) plus ran some errands (more walking)…

just finished dinner (pasta with beans and fresh string beans)…washing it down with a corona and for dessert? a fruit and nut toblerone. WHOOOHAAA!

(you’re allowed to eat this stuff if you’ve burned over 700 calories in one day)