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Oct 282009

and i’ve been up for about an hour. it is a stay in bed with a cup of nice tea, a good book and two curled up kitties kind of morning. it’s cold outside with softly noisy rain falling. it’s my day off. i’ve lots to catch up on but not much ambition…

ran a 5 miler this weekend. awful pace. legs are really sore…i’ve got 3 more races to run and one race to volunteer for. this sunday is the ING NYC marathon. i’ll be volunteering to help out the NYRR and will be stationed at the finish line. hope the weather cooperates.

awaiting a great friend to return to the nyc area after many many years. it’ll be great to hang, attend live dance performances, visit museums, and troll the many libraries and bookstores in nyc.

currently reading:
the sixth (?) book in the Sookie Stackhouse series: All Together Dead. they are a hilarious read and a good distraction from a busy and serious work day. also checked out a book on the Dog Heroes of 9/11. beautiful shots of sweet dogs and their handlers.

currently watched:
Pride and Prejudice – yet another adaptation (BBC and very good)
Fur – an imaginary bio of Diane Arbus with Robert Downey Jr. and Nicole Kidman
couldn’t watch Dark Water (too much of a downer)

i’d love to stay in my flannel pajamas all day. i’d love to hide out in my sweatshirt hoodie, wrapped up in a comforter, laying on the couch reading a book but…
-i’ve got to do laundry
-get to the gym
-move the car for alternate parking
-return library materials

it is now 6:54 am. i’m heading back to bed for another hour and then resigning myself to the very sad fact that i have to be an adult at least until i get the errands done…


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ps. time for people to grow a brain…

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Oct 142009

ah. finally start off with a hit list that doesn’t include yahoo etc. crawlers. there are at least 4-5 crawlers hitting my diary.
i am disappointed at missing the deadline for the flamenco class…i thought it would start in october but it actually started the end of Sept. you don’t jump into a class once the session has started. so, i’m looking for another dance class to take. may take argentinian tango. i had wanted a class that didn’t require a partner. ah well. i guess i’ll do a little more shopping around before i commit to this class.
with my current work schedule, i can run races sunday mornings and take a dance class as well. 🙂 very happy about that.

the new job is going well. every morning before work, i give myself a pep talk.
i need to be able to trust my abilities because, i have them, but sometimes lack of confidence wins over…and i’m tired of that happening. it’s funny, because i’m actually doing more at this smaller operation as opposed to the specialty hospital i came from. go figure!

what sucks is the morning commute. working overnights allowed me to travel into the city at a time when everyone is trying to get out of the city (by city i mean Manhattan). less folks to compete with for a seat… now? now i join the great morning commute into Manhattan and compete for a seat or even for a spot to stand in the train where i can grab a pole and hang on. yesterday, my arm went a little numb, so i just leaned on the doors (something you are encouraged NOT to do). along with the competition against the rest of the commuting mass is dealing with the bags they carry. i’ll have to get used to newspapers in my face, bags tapping my legs, arms, etc…because noone seems to have any awareness of the space around them or lack of…so they let the bags swing…

ah well. to quote mick jagger, “you can’t always get what you want…”

i’ve 3 goals i’m trying to incorporate in my life.

1. patience – because impatience doesn’t really work well or help

2. grace – because i am lucky to have found another job so quickly and for it to be a good place was really a wonderful turn of luck

3. silence – because folks will believe what they’ve always believed regardless of new information etc. i’m okay in my skin, can sleep at night, have no problem looking in the mirror. i live with a clean conscience. what is the point of arguing against deliberately unhearing ears?

getting back to sleeping during the night was a little tough but my body is slowly going back to the natural. maybe that’s why i feel a little more normal.
activity-wise (i’ll be running at least 3 more races before the end of this year and i’ll be volunteering for this year’s ING NYC Marathon)…i’ll be at the finish line getting those crazy mofo’s bags to them… truly, anyone who sets out to do something as daunting as running a marathon and achieves it deserves a slap on the back and lots of cheers! because it AIN’T easy.

i’ll try to register for a dance class because i miss being graceful. my body is screwy. 🙂

it looks like i’ll be able to go to this year’s village halloween parade (that’s greenwich village). i’ve never been, have always had to work the past 3 years….so if i can hijack my niece…and a couple of my siblings…i’ll finally get to go.

had a dream two nights ago where an old high school english teacher made an appearance (he was one of my two favorite teachers). we hugged. i hope he is okay. last time i had a dream involving my hugging someone in my past was the infamous love of my life whom i haven’t seem in over 15 years. it was so real, i could smell his leather jacket…

i could use a nice long warm hug.

off to shower, get to the NYPL (new york public library) to return items, head to the gym, (go to the Brooklyn Public Library) to return items, do laundry…etc. etc. etc.

new york city can be a pain in the ass
new york city can be the coolest place to be on earth


Oct 062009

had a first good day at work today. nice and easy. it’s about time. we’ll see how the weekend goes…

i’m hopeful. and calm. and it feels good. i have a few short days this week so those will be gym days. it’ll be tricky moving my car for alternate side parking (i’m used to being able to do it in the middle of the night since i was used to being up all night, now i work the day shift) but once i’m set on the monday side of the street, i’ll be set for the week until the following monday. i’ve only 7 car payments left and it’ll be really mine. i plan on continuing to make car payments (make believe that is) directly to my savings account.

it’s getting to be that time again…when i check up on last year’s goals…
and possibly ditch them or make new ones up…not really sure what i had listed, may even have achieved some of them, don’t quite remember…

ah well. should be in bed sleeping…