I have been waiting for over a year to get access (fistula or graft) that can be useable so I can get rid of the catheter. After three to four weeks since my graft placement, the clinic will begin using my graft today along with my catheter. The clinic has protocols and procedures they follow to get the job done correctly. I do not understand, but I see what it is all about. I do not find going to dialysis a waste of my time when it comes to saving my life. I am not ready for another transplant, and I am unsure if I want to have another transplant now. The idea of finding another almost perfect kidney like my mother again scares me — it won’t happen.