October 26, 2019 – 1

Dear Jesus,

At 5:46 AM I am up and about ready for my day.  It is a dialysis day.  I thought getting up at 5:30 AM this morning would help me get started with God before my day began after not doing so for such a long time.  I know you understand that I would prefer to be sitting in a church pew Sabbath mornings than sitting in a dialysis chair for 3 1/2 hours, but I do understand that my health requires dialysis 3x a week and Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday is open for me at 9:15 AM to 1:15 PM at this time.  When an opportunity opens to go on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday, please let me know through the workers there.  You know my schedule with DKF is important to keep as well so that I can get my care with her.  We just have to find the right hours in order to switch.  Until then I will wait patiently even though the idea of missing church on Sabbath took a while to get through my stubborn streak.

As my day continues, dialysis is not that far away.  Please watch over my church family and friends today at church as they have praises, songs, worship, and potluck in your honor.  Also watch over the patients at the dialysis center all day that also includes me and the workers who are taking their job very seriously tending to all of us.  I know the machine I use for dialysis and I do not always get along, but this week has been very good and rewarding in my favor.  I get anxious and start questioning a lot when the machine alarms all the time.  I would like today to be quiet.  Please forgive me if I am selfish in any way about my dialysis going smoothly.  I want another good day.  I do appreciate the hard work of the technicians, the nurses, and the other workers that come and go at the center.  Thank you for listening to me.

As I sit here and speak to you this morning I am easily distracted by the phone, stuff on my computer, and what is going on in my head.  Why can I not have a better concentration level when I spend time with you?  It is annoying me to no end.  It has taken me more than three hours to write/talk you the way I know how to the best.

Love, Kristi