Even though I had decided not to say anything to P about how I felt, I slipped anyway. I think it makes me feel more sure knowing where he stands even if it hurts more. Anyway, this morning he asked me if I was staying positive. And I just said no, I wasn’t because I was still sad over him. And he basically told me to stay positive anyway and gave me happy faces and a thumbs up. And that was all. So, that says everything. There’s no chance of reconciling with him or starting over or trying again.
That’s that. And that sucks.