This Week

I don’t know how I made it through this week.  I’ve been so depressed about N and P that I can barely function!  Thankfully, it’s been a very quiet week at work and everybody has mostly left me alone.  And Shane has been out from Wednesday through Friday, so I haven’t had to constantly be focused on some type of work.  I’m thankful for that.  I really am.  All I really had to do all week was update the PAT document.

Today, I asked P if he had another date set up with the girl he met on Match and he said they just saw each other last night and will probably see each other next week.  I feel really sad and jealous.  He did not want to see me that frequently :(  It hurts :(

I wish it was easier to trust N now.  Now that I know he’s lied about something so big. And even if I could get past the lies… I’d still have to deal with his ex harassing me and his daughter visiting sometimes.  I never wanted that part.  That’s why divorced men and men with children have become dealbreakers for me.  No matter what I do, it’s going to hurt a lot.

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