I forgot to write about my appointment with the psychiatrist on Monday! It was my first visit to her and to any psychiatrist in 4-5 years, but I think it went very well. She was very good and within about 20-30 minutes she had most of my problems figured out and on paper haha. It makes me wonder about my psychologist who doesn’t seem to recognize most of the problems that the psychiatrist found so quickly. But, the psychiatrist (I’ll call her Dr. C) gave me a list of things I should work on with my therapist so at least I can go back to Dawn (my therapist) with a “doctor prescribed” list of things to actively work on. Dr. C said I needed to do cognitive behavioral therapy for my depression and work on assertiveness exercises and relationship skills. I kind of figured CBT was something I should be doing, but it’s nice to hear a doctor confirm it. I hope this gets things moving with Dawn as I don’t think our sessions have been doing much for me at all. It doesn’t help me in the long run to just sit and talk about all the things I’m depressed about on the day of the appointment. It’s not changing anything, it’s just venting! I can do that here or to a friend. And I’ve been seeing Dawn for well over a year so I’m way overdue. Yeesh!
Going to Mini’s tonight for dinner. I was feeling apprehensive about it earlier today for some reason. I guess that’s just the socially anxious person in me trying to avoid a social situation lol. But, I ran into Mini in the cafeteria and actually being in a social situation makes me feel happier and more positive, so I’m kind of looking forward to tonight.
Going up to MD to see Aj tomorrow night for a little date-night. I love when he says that he wants to see me during the week because he can’t wait for the weekend 😀 😀 It’s the best feeling! We’ve been going out for almost a year and a half and I’m so happy that he’s still so interested in me. It’s so unlike my previous relationships.
Oh yeah, Dr. C has bumped up my anti-depressants to double the dosage I was taking before. I started doing that yesterday and it seems to be helping a little. Fortunately, I didn’t get the headaches like I did when I first started taking the meds a few months ago. I feel slightttttly more energetic and slightly more motivated. Though, I am still pretty much a lump once I get home from work lol. Maybe the meds take a little while to ramp up? I hope that’s the case…
Gadget (my dog) has been driving me crazy lately. I feel horrible about it too.. He’s just a dog and he’s just acting the same as he always has, but it’s so difficult for me to take care of another creature when I can barely take care of myself. And now that it’s winter I just HATE going outside. One of my New Year’s Resolutions was to be a better doggie mommy. It’s been tough so far though lol. But, I am playing with him indoors a bit more. We play “crazy fetch” where I throw the toy and try to race him to the toy then I jump on him and try to wrestle the toy away from him lol. It’s fun.