I have a different notion of me as well as the mist that exists in between. While I will succumb to being an illusion that label is a shared one. Each of us has an illusion of the other and while we do try to unmask the other we are not truly trying to find the reality beneath the veil. We are I think trying to balance the reality with enough illusion or illusion with enough reality so that it makes sense. When I have too much reality in my life, like what is happening now, I long to sit and just let it go for a time and write whatever comes to mind. In my world this balances out the reality with the illusion and settles the angst in my being. We have taught one another how to say things and what to say and it is a good lesson to look back upon from time to time because the slippery slope of hurt is easily found and when found the control is lost in fleeting leaps and bounds. Life is unfair and it will continue to be so and I get annoyed with myself when I fail to take the proper time or give the proper focus to what is important. That is in essence my point. I am annoyed with me.