Hidden in the recesses is some thing more… you have to want to see it… desire to find it… that belief that it is there is what makes it visible to the eye… open to the senses… in a flash that what was once invisible opens to the mind and is seen… hear and felt deeply… from that point on it is accessible to you… a belief allows us to seize upon a thread we know exists and to sense all aspects of that thread in any moment… seeing does not open the mind to existence… believing does… believing allows the imagination to come to terms with the reality… perhaps what is hidden is a treasure… more often the treasure is esoteric… not some thing tangible like a leaf… butt some thing fragile like hue… the relationships we have and hold dear are the foundation of our being… we can discard them if we wish as being meaningless butt they are the treasure we hold dearest in our life… if we allow ourselves the belief we can soar…

Some wild notions float across the intersection of time and this place… perhaps I should embrace them more and do less with the time given to me… or perhaps the purpose is to stroll openly… that would be strange… naked is not the best road… it is however the one embraced…

Change is a good thing… not in all ways positive butt eventually it comes to a positive interlude… I have found that know matter what direction we follow eventually we come to a positive ending… follow the edge home… follow a path far enough away from home and suddenly you are at the point where either step you take is a step toward where you began… you can only run so far away before you are at the end of the away and the next movement is towards… better to embrace the change and find the thread that holds it together then to flee the changing tide… you can’t forget who you are… only where you have been and that combination can reduce the experience to a withered shell of the reality… in most lives the who we are is fastened tightly to where we have been… one cannot displace one without the other…

Less is more on the page… less is written butt more is held… more is shown on the high note and the low note… the pageant of the moment allows us to whisper… to find the shadows and listen for the winds call… at some point the temperature dropped and we melted into the ice and snow and cold hard surfaces of time… what comes next is an instant… a flash forward… a genius ticking away at the motor that is running wild… whom are we racing… know one… just time and time always wins…

In fading to black the covers slip back in time… we erase the traces of ever having been there… yet the truth is we have left a complete history in the shadows… all one has to do is lighten up the fabric to reveal the external layer… of course black hides things in the darkness as white hides things in the light… we need only choose witch method of discretion we chose to employ… one illuminates the background beyond one’s eyes to behold the other plunges the edge into total darkness that is felt to the core of ones being… each is impossible to read without the exact opposite… light illuminates the darkness so it can be seen and over stood… a certain amount of darkness is required to read what is illuminated in the brightest of lights… the further we go in either direction the more challenging it becomes to read the words we have left… best to side on the light for darkness hides not only ones journey butt themselves… light hides only ones presence… one can be sensed in the color of the background they choose… it is what permeates their soul… the intent of their being…

I have become negligent in my ways… it is time to get back on the track that allows me to focus on what is important in my days… I have spent way too much time outside my own head or so deep within that I have lost a certain perspective about me… there is a certain balance that I need to hold me… it comes from the jagged edges of reality and the far edges of desire butt it does exist and I have fallen from it and retreated deep… the depth of witch finds no place to hide only places to conceal behind facades the tangles web of frustrations with oneself…

We exist at times we just survive the moment… we find ways to get from point A to point B and that is the purpose of the time we spend… there are places we go and things we do that are trials and others that are pleasures to behold… as we move along the steps will be defined later… is this the magical mystery tour or the long hard journey into night… who knows really what the answer to that is… mysteries abound as do the stark cruel flash of reality into ones imagination… I was once a single tree… a forest unto myself… I no longer hold that distinction if it ever was a distinction… now I have grown to a forest of a few trees all supported by the one tree… that is not such a bad thing… it is what it is… it is what it was destined to be by the choices I have made… there were times when I existed… survived the moment to live in others… holidays remind me of those times… when we gave up a lot to have a bit of some thing later on… this holiday season is surely of the same mold… we have given up a lot to reap a reward later on… and hope fully the sacrifice is worthy of the reward… that is never known until much later on in the circle of life… it is however what we do as parents… we give in the hope that the time will ease the sacrifice… and it does when we do so for the right reasons… all parents over stand the road they are on… it is only from a detached distance that we separate the truth from the chafe… logic is never balanced when we speak of children… when we set our hopes high and dreams for another higher… there does come a time when we must by necessity step aside and let go… for love is all about letting go… rising up and allowing the nest to crumple and the world to step in as they step out…

Retracing old steps has its point… the struggle with time… the struggle with the moments we have… in point of fact what is here is what we can deal with… what exists some where else… well that is for another moment in time…

I choose… the question often comes up as to why… why does one do what they do… as it pertains to art of any kind I feel… therefore it is important… that is the essence of it… I feel strongly that it should be therefore it is as it is and I do so not because it is a search for fame or a reason to be seen… butt simply because I feel… the words find away out… why are they spread across the tides… well it is a progression of the person more than any one particular thing… in the beginning there is one place or attitude… as we grow we gain more… we mature away and towards… and some times regress… being private has in all ways been the corner stone of my objectivity… therefore I remain in the shadows… the cover allows me to wander… my objective has never been to be seen… only imagined… a figment is more powerful then the reality… an imagined touched more intriguing than the real… it is so with art… what one can imagine inside their minds is much more real for a time than the reflection they can peace together outside… the outside is never as perfect… never as complete… for the outside is but the representation of the original inside your mind… the same is true of any art… the artist themselves looks upon their work as unfinished or incomplete or a pale reflection of their desire… that is why we explore the possibilities of finding a better way to reveal what is inside and we do so not for power or praise of fame or fortune… we do so because it is inside our minds and it must come forth… our compulsion is to express…

Arrivals are departures from where we were once… we arrive having left our previous place… we step forth unto the new challenge with an idea or concept… that the previous crossroad was unable to fill… we seek more as we awaken… as we rekindle the flame that burns within us… so it is with me… so it is with each one of us… those to whom we seek find the path by their own doing… we can lead and some will follow butt the best are those who walk to their own beat that we manage to find as we walk to ours…

One must learn to be short and to the point… so that the world of twitter and networks can post where you are and what you are doing… the world is all about the quickie… witch can be interesting…

A good percentage of the tree falls short of the branches… under the cover of the leaves the fall blooms in colors we experience more than just see… the sense of change lingers on our lips and turns us toward the colder more stark months ahead… in the absence of color we invent ways of adding it to our moments… this is the first day of the rest of the days we will have so it is a good idea to use it as a means to get some where… when asking for the way we get directions another feels we need… when asking for ourselves we find there is no answer another can relay… answers are in all ways from the perspective of the other… our path is the one that is from ours and ours alone… we each have our crosses to bear… so when the tree that protects us falls short we have to find another one that will wrap us… some times the road goes as far as we can go and we need to step off of the path to find our next adventure…

I seek the music of the edge to balance me… some how that is the only possibility that makes sense… teetering between the void and the solid ground… a singular entity wavering with the wind… one possibility held against another…

When we step forward it is necessary to take your feet off the ground for a period of a split second… in that split second we become detached from everyone and everything… until we put our feet back on the ground… we all have moments when we forget that having one foot on the ground at all times is important to our stability… we get lost and become detached… we float a bit too far from the center of who we are… in changing we find our way by letting go and moving on… for some this is the critical essential element of change… the need to let go and move on… for others they have mastered keeping one foot on the ground while they allow the other to find the next firm ground to step on… each method has its essential wonders… it really depends on the person and the situation they are changing… as for me I have experienced both worlds…

Limitations find me impassive… I find ways to limit the limitations that others place around me… there are no fences… nor mountains… nor barriers that stand… all things are possible to remove from the road you choose… you need only choose to do so…

One step and the river flows through the paradox… the faster one moves the closer they come to the apex… yet the curve is missing and the fast one is further from the target with every stroke… I wish I knew the answer… butt it is still impossible to answer anyone’s questions butt your own…

Progress can be measured in a number of ways… our perspectives on it vary mostly by our experiences… we are at Christmas and for most this is a day filled with hope… good memories and a sense that the world can do better… it is not a day however that is universally celebrated… though many faiths have holidays this time of year we are not all Christians… there fore there is diversity even in this… what are we celebrating… what are we exploring… what do we take away from these moments that stir us to rise above the petty and come to a more spiritual choice… even in our diversity we find ways to accomplish good… and even in our diversity we find ways to hate… how boring would it be if we all were of the same ideal… the same faith… cut from the same political structure… how useless would that be… progress is measured when we find ways to use the diversity we have to do what is right… it is a means by witch many come together to find a common road that satisfies each… compromise is not as some thing a reduction in ones ideals to satisfy another’s lack… compromise is a choice that gives each a road they can accept of the many offered… as people we need to stand more on our ideals and less on our politics… organizations separate people… definitions tend to underscore a person and limit what they are truly… they do provide a bases for who the person is… butt a label is only a simplified means to describe… my opinions are diverse… where I stand on any issue is based on what I know and what I sense… so on one I could be all for one side and on another all for the other way of thinking… that is the nature of who I am as an individual… of how I seize the world… so while I can disagree with aspects of a philosophy other peaces of it I can embrace… compromise is important because it shares the hope of many ideals instead of the limited ones of those in power at the moment… for in this we are all assured… power is a fleeting moment… if you use it to gain an objective… it will soon be pulled from underneath you… and it will take time to rebuild the structure from witch your power was formed… be blind to the river that runs under the bridge only as long as the bridge stands… once removed you have to forge the river on your own… and that can be very enlightening to the power structure that you believed you had… blind followers deserve not the sight nor the protection promised for their blindness… they deserve to be pushed aside and absorbed in the many… so today as we celebrate diversity of heart and hope and mind and possibility and love… perhaps now we can get a grip on where we are… what we are doing… and where the road on one hand leads and find a means to compromise before we are tossed into the raging storm…

As time moves on we some times feel that we are out of things to say… I have at times been in that state of tied tongue and found it not to be that as much as having a lot to say and the competition to say it flooding the gates so that it feels that there is nothing one can say clearly… there is always lots to say about the fabric of time… it rolls along regardless of the pace we wish it… time is the magical fabric we write our history upon… at this time of the year when the winds of winter blow harsh and cold and we seek the warmth of a cozy fire and a glass of wine our minds turn over the past… it is a reflective time… we have managed another turn of the year… and as such we sit and hope… we hope that the next is better… that we will find our way around once more… we want in our hearts… we desire in our minds and we have hope that perhaps this coming year will stir the magic that is time in our favor…

It used to be easy to correspond… butt the world has become too much face book and a lot less one on one… the wonder to be friends to many and known by not a single one… that is our destiny as we go forth… it will take a bit of courage for me to venture out into the world… perhaps I should as they say everyone is doing it… and what exactly are they doing on the social site… relating the old and the new… posting details of their days and nights… I am a more intimate writer then one who shares their day in details to total strangers… and yes I over stand there are few stranger then I… butt that is what it is… where there was once many there are still a few and fewer still and when time finds it time there will be only me and the tide will wash over me like any other soul…

Perhaps some good will come of it… it is better to act then to be the spectator… there comes a time in life when we need to add our voice to the growing concern… perhaps it is some thing minor that irritates us or some thing a bit more universal… what ever it is it is our obligation to voice our opinion… lately I have been giving a lot of thought to the ongoing debate on healthcare… I have actually taken time to sit and read some of the bill… very confusing… listened to each side of the equation… sought impartial data and cost information and did as much as I could to find out what I could… and then it occurred to me that perhaps it was time to speak my mind… even if I am wrong… even if I am a bit off the mark… this is an issue that is on a grand scale… there are those for it and against it… and in the senate it is a party line split… knot one person from either side moved across the aisle… and I thought to myself how is that possible… how is it possible that not one democrat or republican moved… statistically that is not possible… I am a bit ashamed of the proceedings… the way the votes were purchased… the putting aside for procedure… not to mention that the bill itself will never do what it is intended to do… perhaps some good will come of my words as I added them to the pile of others… I spoke… perhaps by speaking I will add another straw to the back and eventually when the people speak a straw will break across the back and eyes will open… it is time for the individual to stand up and speak… if I just accept the outcome without voicing my opinion then I have done what many have done before… it is time to say no… and hopefully some good will come of it…

The perspective deepens on the angle from witch you approach it… on one hand the best of all possibilities exists in any one single moment… that possible is quickly and easily eluded to or avoided or even overlooked… it does not mean it know longer exists… it means we are not sensing the possibly… we are filtering it out of our mind’s eye… experience has taught us how to arrange the world before us… we are taught to see what we see… hear what we hear and feel what we feel… as time goes on and our experiences grow some of those sensations change… and some remain the same getting stronger by the experiences we have had… if we take the approach that all life is chaos… then that is what we will experience… if we believe learning is easy and effortless… then that will be our experience… the perspective deepens the experience we are having… and it does depend a great deal on how we approach the moment at our hand…

Debates are essential elements of meaningful progress… there are multiple sides to every story… to every situation… one extreme or another does not achieve success over time… fully open or completely closed each has a detrimental effect on progress… conservative… liberal… moderate… each have a place where their ideals bear fruit… what I find interesting is the way each states universal platitudes to their way of thinking butt in practice they are a bit more open to taking liberties that those platitudes don’t support… this is particularly true of late of the global warming agenda… I think we all believe we need clean air and water… know one is stupid enough to disagree with that… what is the scientific information that proves that the cycles of cold and warm on the earth are actually changing as dramatically as is being stated… we have people telling lies… the polar ice caps will melt within a few years if we don’t do something about this… and base the statement on a scientist research and when asked the scientist clearly states I never said that… so what do we believe… I guess we are back to where we have in all ways been… remember who is talking… remember what their angle is… and always question their motives and who is paying them… it is all about power… perceived and other wise… celebrity… the fifteen minutes of fame… and any other motivating force… a politician berates a flight attendant who tells him to put away his phone on a flight… why… because he has the power to do so… I disagree… he is a loser because he forgot the basic tenet of service… of working for the people… and I expect most of our elected officials have… they are in it for the money and the power… they are not doing what is right… they are not finding middle ground to compromise and get things accomplished… they are trying to give their supporters something for nothing… so they can remain in power… we have allowed them to mortgage our grandchildren’s future… perhaps it is time to remove all of them and start over… I am a person who seeks to over stand what is being legislated… I take time and make the effort to read opinions from as many people as I can… and then I look for the benefits versus the cost of doing something… that is how I come to my conclusions… I want to be free to think… I don’t like other people making choices for me… I especially dislike government employees making choices for me… the less of that we have the better we are… because in my life… my experiences have shown me that… I have read many opinions that are opposite to that… and I don’t find them compelling… I am not responsible for the care of another… the greater good is a fallacy… and cannot be legislated… because when it is… the greater good becomes the pet project of whomever is sponsoring the law… I want the debate to be meaningful and focused on what is gained and at what cost that we gain it… the talk has gone from millions of dollars to billions and soon will be in trillions… for what… that is what is not being truly explained… it does not seem that the what is being carefully explained… the who is… what they are getting is a whole lot of nothing… have we learned nothing… our President believes you should not leave a soul behind… they should all share in the great wealth of the nation… they should by contributing and striving to make the most of themselves… I have had the same advantages as many… some of us are successful others not… it was by the choices we made… and now we want to say… no matter what choices you make you will be cared for… you can’t protect everyone from falling… that is life… that is what makes the experience worth having… there has to be the element of chance… the leap that will end in success or a fall that one has to climb up from… the thing is there will in all ways be those left behind… and we can find ways to deal with them… another way would be preferable…

The process protects the one from the many… the rights of the individual are held sacred in the face of the multitudes… each has a right to say no and to live as an individual in society… so why is it that we tend to limit our liberties to get some protection… when history has proven over and over that when we do this we get none of the protection promised and have even further limits put to our liberties… what are we so afraid of… I know the axiom that power corrupts… and when people get into power they wish to hold onto it by making promises and giving generously to their supporters… what I wonder about some times is that there are people that actually don’t understand that nothing is free… it comes with a price tag that eventually has to be paid… personally my wish is for the government to get out of my way… for them to stay out of my life… set standards… yes… make sure everyone plays fair… yes… they simply fail every other test they are put to… I can’t name a successful government program or one that actually provides the services they are intended to… they do provide a large number of jobs for people… and that is the thing… why is the government the number one employer… perhaps we need to scale things back a bit and take into account the government is us and we pay those bills though our taxes and we are the some one that is paying the bill… so perhaps it is time to exercise our individual initiative and tell them all to get out of the way… when we stop protecting special interests and start seeking solutions that open up possibilities then we will have more success… it is time to say no… I want my individual right to say no… to say I disagree and to not participate… that is my right… and one I wish to hold onto forever… we are called at times to stand up and say what is in our minds… we should do that with quiet determination… know one succeeds on the premise that they provide nothing and take some thing… it is only by contribution that we move forward…

A response is effortless… my mind immediately has an answer… the choice is what limits the expression of that response… over standing the moment you are in and the possible reactions is how we filter our responses… it is a question of with whom and what… each situation is unique based on who you are sharing it with and what state they are in… friends being different then family… then lovers… each has their own unique set of criteria for how we react… the response is effortless it comes to mind instantly… and then we run through all the scenarios and select the one that suits the situation best according to the desired outcome… we learn to balance the truth with the white lie with the political appropriate response required… it all deepens on what we wish to get out of the moment at hand now doesn’t it…

I have had a momentary lapse of my reasoning… it happens that way with me… one minute I have the moment and then in an instant it slips away… crossing over the mythical age line of fifty has made this more pronounced… or perhaps I see them more now than I did before… was I in all ways this logically illogical… and if so how did I get where I am… does it matter if the logic is flawed… I suspect that all logic is flawed from one perspective or another and I suspect that my illogic is another’s logical expression… it just deepens on your point of view… so know matter what way is up it leads away from down… right is the opposite of left or wrong depending on how you look at it… if we keep what is right that would mean we leave what is left behind… that could be a political statement as well as a statement on good and evil… some do think the other side is evil right or left… I find the debate at times interesting… mostly I find those who stir the pot to be pot stirrers… the purpose is not to allow the other to make a better move… it is not about doing what is right or left… butt doing what gets me the margin of success required… or sew it seams… is there any logic to what is written… yes and know… yes because it is written and know because it truly is a exercise in venting ones own frustration… the path to the deep sigh begins for me with a linguistic purge of thought… once the avenue is clear then one meaning I the person I am can sigh deeply and let go… and letting go as we all know is the greatest challenge we have… so when my reason lapses as it has… I am there to remind myself that letting go is what it is all about… for love does not stand in the way… love opens the door and pushes you outside to be the brilliant wonder you are… silence is the fruit of opportunity knocking… capture just a single blossom and you will glow eternally… and if none of this makes sense… it is just another one of my lapses in reasoning…

All it takes is one step to get you moving… one tiny push to get you off the center and into motion that is sustainable… once moving we tend to keep doing so until we are ready to stop… getting started seems to be the most difficult of things… once started though we do tend to get things accomplished… that is our nature or at least my nature… I can sit and wonder about things and then suddenly once in motion I do get things taken care of… butt there is a lot of getting ready… preparation… setting up the angles before I do… there are moments when I wonder what would happen if I just did things as they came around the bend… shot from the hips so to speak…

Time is a great healer… a means to separate oneself from the immediate emotional and physical and get a perspective… although when dealing with ones children that is often more difficult then it seems… though in general time allows us the opportunity to take the deep breathe and think a bit more clearly…

Today is a new opportunity… some what of a fresh start or new beginning… perhaps it is my nature to see things that way… perhaps it is just the side of the bed I woke up on… with all the activities of the world and the chaos that surrounds us it is important to seize upon something… why knot seize upon a positive spark… I suspect it is easier and more seductive to seize upon the darker shades of things… perhaps that is our nature after all… we like the sensational… we like to see the ones on the pedestals fall… butt today… perhaps more so then yesterday I need to grasp hold of an opportunity to smile… to find humor… to find a spark of happiness in the unfolding moments… this is where it begins for me… inside this vortex of thought… where anything and everything is possible… where today… the opportunity of a life time exists… and I answer… often I have wondered how many such chances I have allowed to slip past me… butt not today… today I am seizing the moment… today I am grasping hold of the time I have and using it…

At this time of year… at the year comes to a close and we are in the whirlwind of activities related to holidays and preparations for the New Year… we need to take a moment to reflect… I am a big fan of taking time for ones self… even in the midst of all this chaos… take a moment to sit and reflect… in that peace of mind there is more happiness more enjoyment then in all the hustle to get things done… as we take care to cover all the bases and dot all the I’s and cross all the t’s in our lives… remember to take time for the one life… your own…

I find it interesting that people try to separate religious symbolism from Christmas… we are after all a melting pot of beliefs as well as one of cultures… I over stand that people wish to separate religion from politics… religion from business… religion from all other aspects of living… and that has its merits… religion has been used and is still being used as a weapon to separate and divide… Christmas is a holiday rooted in Christianity… like it or not the basis of it resides in the Christian faith… so lets all be a bit more tolerant of one another…

I am easy… that is what it is… what comes my way comes my way… I am not a person who needs a specific some thing to spark my imagination… in fact I am well aware that almost anything can set the wheels into motion at any time what so ever… I rather expect nothing and be pleased with what moves my way then to create a need or expectation that falls short and feel some what put upon by another’s lack or achievement of my desire… unless I am willing to share the expectation… and what fun is that… I prefer to be pleasantly surprised by whomever and what ever happens… I would rather be easy… it simplifies this complicated world we live in…

My focus has wandered… lost seems to fit my perspective… butt it is not that… I am not lost at all… I know where I am and who I am with… butt lost seems to still fit… to still be the one word I can use to say what it is I sense… yet I am not lost at all… it is more that I am on hold waiting for the next shoe to drop… perhaps it is that I fail… that I fail to seize the moments as I once used to… perhaps I am not as play filled as I once was… the mood has become more serious… as it should for what I am dealing with is all good butt it is also of a serious nature… I feel a sense of failure… a sense of having let go too soon… or perhaps not soon enough… the art of letting go is a true art… knowing when to hold and when to release ones grip can mean all the difference to another… so where does it all lead me… in circles… I have to get back to the music… to the pictures… to the center… and once there perhaps I can find away… the thing is I don’t suffer the questions that others seem to relive over and over… do or do not… this thought of giving it a try puzzles me… when you are prepared to sit up straight and get it done what purpose does repeated doubt bring to that outcome… it is time to pursue a fruitful outcome… if one keeps the eye on the prize… it is never far away or off in the distance… time is all we have and time is that element that speaks most to our needs… the thing is we tend to want what we want now… when it does take a journey to achieve the mountain top… anything worth having is worth pursuing… better to go forth and succeed by doing then to default to the current success… at least then we are in the mode of having dictated our own success…

The tide ebbs… falling short of the wall… settling in… it appears at once of being tame… that is an illusion of course… one does not tame water… fire or the earth or the air… we are at its mercy most of the time… for the most part for the better… yet some times we are in harms way… and then the storm clouds clear and we are in awe of the forces that nature can bring to bear… swept away in the clear cold rain… or snowed under… the forest protects and endangers… we balance ourselves on the one… on the pedestal that we have experienced building over time… at times precarious our balance is… at times wide and strong to the core of the earth we stand… we ebb as well… for we are peace and particle of the earth… the sea and the sky… as well as being spiritual… we are physical characters… we are unique in that we live in both spheres of influence… at once at home in the spiritual world we are at home in the physical one… all the differences are exposed… and our souls bared to the edge… one never gives up… one never surrenders… the edge is all around you… it cuts across the very next step you take… and so it goes…

Lost is not a good indicator… it is perhaps an easy way to say things… butt it does not say it all… nor does being lost complete the picture… it obscures it… truth is a series of lies told in the proper order… that they revolve around the basic reality such that they arrive at the original truth desired to be untold… we hold these truths to be self evident… that speaks a lot about where we have come from and where we wish to go from there… for even at the beginning there was dissention… there was disagreement as to what was self evident… and where we needed to move toward… the away from was easy… a tyrant is easy to step away from… butt witch direction do you move towards… often we are one step away from tyranny at any moment…