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I'm 21 years old. Every day I fight DEPRESSION. (And rather unsuccessfully, if I may add.) I have every single Eating Disorder you can find in the DSM - IV. I was an athlete for 12 years. From years of competition I just learned one thing, and that's to never give up. {Even if I wanted to quit I dont think that I could ever stop.}
A lot of "little" things happened to me that forced me to become weak. I am on the bottom right now and honestly can;t see the edge from down here any more, but I will fight and get stronger again.
Im small and needy, but I don't know how to show that. I end up pushing people away. I know all the right things to say to keep suspicions dead.
I have a pretty smile. It hides a lot.
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----///-\\\----If you have ever felt
---|||---|||---Alone
---|||---|||---Hated
---|||---|||---Suicidal
----\\\-///----Appathetic
-----\\///-----Depressed
------///\-----or
-----///\\\----just
----///--\\\---Feel in pain
put this on your file.
It's true that we don't know what we've got until it's gone, but we don't know what we've been missing -- until it arrives."
●▬▬▬▬▬๑۩۩๑▬▬▬▬▬▬●
IM THE TYPE OF GIRL....
who will burst out laughing in dead silence at something that happend yesterday..........
IM NOT PERFECT. MY HAIR DOESN'T ALLWAYS STAY IN PLACE & I SPILL THINGS ALOT. IM PRETTY CLUMSY & SOMETIMES my heart just hurts. I start fights when I am sad; I never mean them and I actually want/need you there... SOME DAYS NOTHING GOES RIGHT. When I TAKE A STEP BACK, I REMEMBER HOW AMAZING LIFE TRUELY IS AND MAYBE JUST MAYBE ITS ALL WORTH FIGHTING FOR.
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DONT BOTHER TRYiNG 2B mE
its not that fun
its not that easy
I DONT WANT ANYONE SEE ME CRY
EVER
i WANT A FAiRY TALE ENDiNG
nD A FAiRY TALE BEGiNNiNG
i'M Constantly ANXIOUS
i'M CRAZii
BEFORE i DiE iM GONNA KiSS SOMEONE iN THE MiDDLE OF THE STREET ON THE RAiNiEST DAY OF THE YEAR.
iM RANDOM.
i'M WORKING TO GET MY SEXii BACK
YOU'LL SOON BE ADDiCTED TO ME
SO BASiCALLY i'M TRYING TO BE THE HAPPiEST PERSON ALiVE♥
.♥.█ 50% Sweet♥
.♥.██ 60% shy &quiet♥
.♥.███ 70% Bitch♥
.♥.████ 80% Anxious♥
.♥.█████ 90% Depressed ♥
.♥.██████ 100% Lost♥
-/♫♫/--/♥♥/-
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Anyways, So WELCOME TO MY DIARY!
I ramble on and on and on all the time.... ! I might start a diary post with one topic and finish it off writing about something completely different... ! I can't put two "grammatically correct" sentences together..... and that's all okay!
...... because my diary is important to me. Like an onion, here I strip off all of my protective layers: the fake spray tan is off, the black nail polish is gone and my long hair is pushed back in a simple pony tail. It's just me.... JUST THE WAY I AM. All the good and all the bad.
I'm ready. I'm not scared any more.
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