Dear Diary,I am feeling... I am good. I am moving forward. I wrote a letter, to him. The first letter I'd ever written to or about him. It felt good. I am recovering. I am getting my strength back. He doesn't control me. I still have a long way to go, but I am finally getting there. And it feels good.
About time as well! It's been four years. But better late than never. I sent Q the letter I wrote as well. He replied via email: "I don't want to try to respond in an e-mail. Hope you understand. For now all I want to say is this: *a hug the size of the world*. Cuddles, baby."
He's a great guy. Though he's a bit stressed at the minute, he's got a lot on his plate. He's going to Cardiff university for his PhD in September and there's a lot to sort out. Am going down to see him next week, which I'm looking forward to. Just want to give him a huge hug and be there for him while he's stressed.
Kristina has unblocked me on MSN. I was worried about her. She seems to be okayish though. The dynamics have changed in the relationship between her and her Master. She is now just his slave, they still have fun with BDSM, but there is no sex involved. She is less dependant on him. And his girlfriend has told him that he has to spend more time with her, not his slaves. I think this is the beginning of the end between him and Kristina. And I am relieved.
I still stand by what I said before: he is not a Master. He is the type of guy that gives BDSM and D/s relationships a bad name. Bah.
Heh, my Mum keeps finding some of my sex toys. She comes into my bedroom to tidy up. She finds sex toys. So far she has found lube, vibrator, cock rings, body paint and whip. I think she is finally getting the message to stay out of my room. I'm not embarassed by this, she is. She shouldn't be going through my stuff if she doesn't want to find things like that.
Her problem, not mine. She also found out that I have a PO Box. She said she was cleaning up, picked up an envelope and the PO Box card fell out. Her and Dad asked me why. I told them it's none of their business. Which it isn't. I am 21, if I want a PO Box I will have a PO Box. Anyway, the reason I got one was because of a guy on this forum (the BDSM forum where I met Q) has made me a flogger and is posting it to me. Didn't want to give him my home address, so got a PO Box. Will have it for a year, and will use it to get other toys sent to it.
Lisa is having a tough time at the minute. They're changing her meds for her arthritis, as her old meds just weren't doing anything. Hopefully the new meds will stop the pain. She says she's just in constant agony. She's also having appointments with a diabetes specialist. So she's having a tough time at the minute.
Had a hospital appointment today, about my liver. Okayish news. I've been having a few problems, but nothing serious. As soon as I lose the weight I need to lose, I will be fine. Except there might be some complications because of my PCOS. So I'm having to have a biopsy done, just to make sure everything is okay. Not looking forward to that.
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