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9 Jun 2003 - Next Step For Bailey's Illness
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I've received news today from Dr.K and Dr.T Regarding our next coarse of action for Bailey. The decisions I need to make now are very difficult to make because on one hand we need to know if Bailey is starting to suffer from PDD related illness, or whether she simply has a crop infection. I realize sadly, that the results of her blood tests are of concern. However, my first fear is stress for Bailey. Im not sure what to do, Im not sure what the best coarse of action is or the best decision to make for Bailey, but the following below is what I need to think about. 1) Xray and Barium
she will need to be put under anethesia which is risky, but the travel is only 5 min away and I can be with her the whole time, including recovery 2) Floroscopy
Travel is 2 hrs away, one way and would need to be kept over night for testing. I know lack of feeding, staying somewhere strange, without her cage and buddies and me will knock the life out of her, she would be so upset and so stressed. Yet this test could tell us all we need to know. 3) Crop Bioposy
Anesthesia again, invasive surgery and hard recovery. Can be done here at my vets, but is a risky operation that might not confirm PDD as only 5o percent of positive cases are confirmed. But again, might diagnose Bailey
Stress is the biggest factor with PDD. Stress can bring on the illness if she was exposed, stress can further make her sick, but doing the testing to know can help us help her in the end and to help protect my other babies. In ending this converstation, I made the decision to have the Xray first with Barium. This test might tell us what our next step needs to be. I can be with Bailey, right up to the time of testing, and she can be placed in my arms to recover at the clinic till she is stable enough to come home. Im scared. Very scared.
Thursday June 12th is the day. 8:30 am we are scheduled for the Xray. I am praying harder then you can imagine.
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9 Jun 2003 - Note About Simon
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Simon has been quite today. Normally my buddybird (as I nickname him)is repeating sentence after sentence all day long. It's worth making note of, especially since the changes we've had to make with his play area and the fact he had a pretty stressful situation yesterday with a blood feather that needed to be pulled. He is however, eating better on his own then he was for the last few days. I just think OR i HOPE, it's because he can no longer climb over to Zack and Bailey's play area. Other then that, Zack has been extra vocal today. Bailey seems better with her eyes looking a little more normal. The Twins are active, eating and playing and doing well. Jeffery is his normal grumpy self and the breeders are quiet and busy with their eggs.
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9 Jun 2003 - Just Some Thoughts
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It was late putting the peeps to bed. Emily seemed tired and very cuddly, she had a good day. Bailey definately seem much better and even seems to be getting used to taking her meds and process of toweling. I try hard to make it a game for her. Owen had a good day also. Zack talked non stop today, and made me smile today. Simon as mentioned earlier was quite and seemed so tonight as well. He cuddled on my shoulder till I had to unglue him from me. I could litterly sit for hours and hours with them and really dislike putting them to bed. I just look at my fids and I just can't imagine PDD striking us again. I'm not sure if I am in a state of shock still or whether I am ignoring the way I really feel. I know the realities of this disease deep inside, but I refuse at least today, to allow those realities to bring me down. Mabe I am unreasonably expecting too much of a miracle with Meloxicam to save my babies if they get sick. I have too feel this way about this drug. It is our only hope. I am terrified for Bailey on Thursday. I hope I'm doing the right thing by having this Xray done. I fear this procedure to change her for the worse, yet I know if I don't do the Xray to help rule out or diagnose, we could worse off anyways. I guess I just don't want to believe that yet another dear baby of mine could be sick with PDD. I've cried so many tears these past weeks since Austin was sick and passed away, that I feel dehydrated. I guess the best way to describe the way I feel is completely numb. Zombie Like. Yet on the other hand, I want to enjoy to the fullest every moment I have with each of my babies and try to put my real fears and pain aside to make sure my babies don't pick up on it. I don't them to think anything is wrong. I want their world to be as perfect as it was before our nightmare began. So I guess you could say, Im doing alot of Acting these days. However, after the covers are pulled over my buddies, and the rest of the family have gone to bed, I openly mourn and miss my Austin and cry with fear for tommorrow.
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