Hey all...well my day is OVER finally..it was so long!
well i got to school and nothing happened...went to Latin, talked about NY a little, as usual, and the updates...then we went into the lesson, that which i KIND of understand, but not really....i was so lost that i just dozed off "sorta" into my own little world..then second period came..and jess and i didnt wanna go to our classes..so we went to the tardy room...what fun..had to write like two friggin pages (LONG!) of stupid crap...but it wasnt that bad..its better than goin to class....and thats all it really is...its not for tardies..cause not many people are REALLY tardy..its just to blow off class..oh what a good idea they had....then went to child development...and got annoyed by michael phillips..stupid friggin dork..hes a pervert...lunch...blah...then off to english..CAMEL was in my class hahah hes this guy that i called that last year, cause he would LITERALLY spit on the gym floors..and he looked like a camel doing it..it was gross...and mitchell wrote on me...and that was that....BUT! to top my BLAH day off...melissa...johns 'ex' girlfriend grabbed me after fourth and was like Mallory i need to talk to you...and i was kinda like nooooooo not more of this crap...but she kind of revealed something that will do me alot of good....she was like 'so i heard you and john were together since february?" i said yeah and she said 'oh thats weird..cause he and i were together in february' well turns out she wasnt MAD at me..which i thought she was...she had just found all of this out today--as did i...and decided to inform me...about how he was abusive to her...about how they were having sex while he was with me AND her..so I FINALLY..after SO FRIGGIN LONG...realized that it was true...jess and i would always joke..."i bet johns cheating on me with melissa" turns out it was true...or was he cheating on her with me? techincally it was both..and technically it was shitless of him...and i inted no emailing him and bitching him out AGAIN with all of this....i cant believe i wasted just about five-six months with a two times...a friggin loser...and abuser..thats just sickening...it sickens me to think that it was melissa instead of me...and john telling me he only had sex ONCE...while him and melissa were doing it constantly...that makes me feel really good--knowing that maybe just being with me WASNT EVEN WHAT HE WANTED....he was just using me..but for what purpose? he had the whole nine yards with melissa--but what did he have with me? all i did was put my all into the relationship..i was TOTALLY infatuated with this guy--but what good was i? i dont understand WHY he was with me if he was getting all he wanted from melissa..and then kelsey..this other sophomore..he hit on her last yr too--telling her how much he wanted her back...i hope he gets with a girl one day, who treats him like shit--who messes with his mind..who torments him..and breaks his heart--i hope hes shattered one day..and has to rebuild it all...i hope...
and that was that...i saw john a couple times today...which was good..especially after fourth period--why does his name have to be john? that scares me--but im positive hes different...
i dont know many guys that are like John GF...bastards..one of a kind...
this guy named David send me this website...its got people stories from the tragedy, their feelings, their experiences, lost people, and people telling others they are alright...its a wonderful site..go to it if you have time...
http://11september2001memorial.com/index.asp
we all basically know the updates...so im not going to be adding much to my diary about it, unless something REALLY big comes up..like new news....
Later.
![[Powered By MySQL]](/images/mysql-04.gif)
Copyright Notice: All entries are copyright (and the responsibility of) their respective authors.
