It was a really nice day. A lazy Sunday.It started with getting up early to let the dogs out. Twice. And then crawling out of bed for the day, for good, around 11:00. I can't tell you the last time I got to do that! My sister wanted the baby for a sleepover last night, it was lovely. But I missed him terribly and picked him up around noon to come back home.
We put our fancy rubber boots on and headed into the yard for some raking and pooper-scooping...
That's when it happened.
Somehow Ty managed to cut himself, but he didn't know. I guess it didn't hurt.
I only realized after I picked him up and got soaked with blood. I checked all my own body parts first, thinking it was me who was about to require a transfusion.
Nope. Not me.
So then I checked Ty and realized pretty fast that his hand was the source of the dripping. It was much too bloody to see where the blood was coming from, so I took him into the house and ran his hand under cool water until we found the neat slice through the pad of his ring finger.
I had trouble getting the bleeding to stop. I was holding pressure on it and keeping it cold, but the blood was coming in a steady stream. Poor kid.
I finally managed to get it under control, about a half hour or so, and ran to the drug store for some steri-strips to keep it closed. I couldn't imagine having to take that child back up to the hospital AGAIN this week....
That kid will be the death of me. I'm really started to think that I'm unfit. I shouldn't be responsible....or I'm not RESPONSIBLE enough..maybe that's it.
I had a moment of clarity today. One of those thoughts that happen when you least expect it, and sort of slams you into a higher awareness...
For me, it meant this....when you are doing what you are meant to do, you know, that 'thing' that is your calling, your path to follow...then it shouldn't be a chore. It shouldn't feel awkward, or inconvenient or anything but feeling parallel with your deepest sense of being.
I'm feeling like a fish swimming against the current right now, not as I imagine that my world is supposed to feel. But at least I'm moving...maybe not exactly in the direction that is meant for me...but all roads will lead there eventually.
I'm just taking the route that comes with experience...so when I actually get on the path that leads me to my calling, my destiny, I'll have some experience and some insight into all that I don't want...
I feel like I'm struggling to say the right words here.
But anyway, it's given me a very content and peaceful feeling today.
I'm all fuzzy.....and I'll get there. I have faith.
Okay, that's all for now. I have a few babies that need tucking in.
Thanks for checking in.
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