Dad and Mom drove to pick me up after work today, that was nice! I didn't need to go through all the hassle taking an hour and a half bus ride home. We had hot pot at the restaurant tonite, I still feel very full~This morning when I woke up I still remember I had a dream last nite of Bibi my dog, and Suptu my rabbit. It's a little weird to see my passed away pets in my dream, but that's not the weirdest thing. After dinner, mom told me that she dreamt of bibi last nite. She said it was the first time she saw Bibi in her dream; I know this dream somehow release her from sorrow. Either this dream is spiritual or not, at least it's comforting to her. It somehow brings her back to reality of Bibi really isn't here anymore; however, she seems to take it fine.
Work has been slowing down a little bit, it's not as busy like last week. I still don't like my coworker that much, but is there anything I can do? I mean, I'm not an aggressive person, and I don't like revenge. I don't actually like arguing and yelling with other people. However, it doesn't mean that I agree with his behavior or what he said about me. Should I even care? As I struggle with the thought of dislike/hate my coworker, I'm thinking what does it really mean to be a Christian and to be a light to the world?
I've received a story in my email today. A Christian man is sharing how his wife is sick and he has to take her to the doctor everyday. The first few days he was fine, but after that he started to complain. He found himself felt happier to talk to a beautiful single lady comparing taking care of his wife. (I think it must be the Holy Spirit reminding him his vow) "I'll take care of her, in joy or in difficulty, in health or in sickness......" This had been repeating in mind, this man recalled his promise in this marriage. It didn't matter how much bible he studied or memorized, he had no control with his unjoyful heart. Somehow, he was jealous with his Christian fellows who also had wife or partner with sickness, but they were serving joyfully. At last, he came to realize that he wasn't prefect, and it's only God's grace that carry him through difficulties. So even, he has lust, jealousy, whining, and compaint in heart, God had already sent Jesus to save us from sins. He said, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." We are not prefect like Christ, but we can't deny the evilness in us neither. Our knowledge of the bible can't save us, but it's our relationship with Christ that makes all the difference.
So while we may still struggle with sins, why don't we fix our eyes on Jesus? We ought to be preservence in pursuing God and continue to seek in His presence. Though, we may have sins and temptation in heart. God says, "stop! and listen to what I want to say". I think this won't be a moment of harsh blame, I believe God will say "I love you, sinners, that's why I sent my son".
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