It’s been an odd month. I have a deep sense of restlessness that irritates all the way to my core. The BoyToy is history, so much so that he doesn’t even stop by to get his mail anymore. But that’s ok because the distance has allowed me to move on with my life. I really think that it was only a karmic relationship now. Something meant to propel me farther down a specific path.I’ve dated several men in the last month, and had ongoing e-lationships with several others. A few of them even seem like there might actually be some commonalities to work with. Unfortunately, they are all over 100 miles away. I guess that cuts down on the possibility of the dreaded drop-in, but also on the spontaneity of seeing each other in person.
The one that is scheduled to meet with me first is several years my senior, but very young at heart. I find him very attractive in a variety of ways, not the least of which is his appearance. He’s extremely bright and witty, and has lots of life experience. Believe it or not, he’s a little kinkier in some ways than I am. But who knows where I’ll be on the kink scale in ten years? He would probably be very good for me if we end up being more than just friends. I really enjoy chatting with him and can talk to him for hours.
There is a slight hitch, though. I’m full-figured, but not in the “hour-glass” sort of way usually preferred by most men. Since he saw several full-length photos of me things seem to have cooled. Of course, I could easily be experiencing a case of over-sensitivity, but I really don’t think so. He is meant to come up here this weekend to help me celebrate my birthday, however, it’s looking like that might not be happening now. I don’t really know. I need to ask about it, I suppose.
The reason that I’m feeling so over-sensitive about this right now is because I’ve gone on a few dates in the last two weeks that ended quickly and badly. I try to always give them a photo before we meet, so these things don’t happen. Only one of them didn’t get a photo of me and that was because he left to meet me before he said he would. He was supposed to call me before he left, and he didn’t call until after he was already on the road. There wasn’t much I could do after that. The other ones had seen my photos and were fine with a two-dimensional me. Oh well, I wasn’t thrilled with any of them, either. Funny, but none of them were exactly Brad Pitt, themselves. One of them had so much aftershave on he could have been smelled half a mile away. I could actually taste the cheap stuff!
One of the others is around my age, and very sweet. He’s kind and considerate, seems to genuinely care about me as a person, and goes out of his way to stay in touch with me.
The one I know best is a great guy. He’s an engineering student getting an advanced degree at one of the best schools in the country. He’s absolutely brilliant, and corrects my spelling, which never fails to crack me up. We’ve chatted all night many times, and he makes me laugh so hard sometimes that I can’t even see the screen anymore through the tears and I fear that I might wet my pants! He’s a cuddly guy and absolutely adorable, to boot.
Like the others he’s also kind and considerate. That seems to be the pre-requisite for attracting my interest. This one is a genius though. Of course he’d argue that point with me, most likely, as he’s quite modest about it. He is one of the few people I’ve ever spoken with to whom I feel significantly intellectually inferior.
Unfortunately, he’s 20 years my junior, which means that as much as we like each other, there is little chance of ever being more than friends with benefits. If not for the age issue, he would be my ideal man. He is definitely the right combination of brains, looks, humor, social skills, emotional availability, sensitivity and sexuality. Who ever ends up with him someday is going to be one very, very lucky woman. Should we ever get to spend the weekend together that we keep talking about, going home will be very difficult for me. But I’ll deal with that if and when I must.
I’ve had a couple of requests to finish “The Quartet” series, and so I’ll be working on that in the near future. As always, should any of you readers want to read my take on something specific, just leave me a comment and I will either write something on your chosen topic, or tell you why I can’t.
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