I just don't know what I'm going to do. I'm so stressed out right now it's causing my acid reflux to acted up and I'm miserable. There are two things going on in my life right now. First is my youngest son and second is Rhonda.We will start with Mason first. This kid is driving me crazy. He won't listen to me and he is constantly getting into trouble at school. We thought that he just needed to get use to going to school all day instead of just half the day but he's had plenty of time to get use to it. The school year is almost over and he is still acting up. He's only in kindergarten and I've already had to go pick him up from school once because the principal called me and as of today his teacher has called us 3 times. I'm not sure if he's hyper active or has ADD or something. I really think there is something going on in his head. He's so rebellious. He refuses to listen to anyone other than my parents and Mike. He almost missed out on going on a field trip today with his class. The only reason why he's getting to go is because his teacher wasn't able to call me last night like she told Mason she was going to do and she felt that is wasn't fair for him to miss out today because she didn't get a hold of me. I really am at my wits end because he is a good boy. He just makes wrong choices and those choices get him into trouble and we just can't seem to get that through his head.
The other thing that is weighing on my shoulders is Rhonda. I got to chat with her this morning and she is really having a hard time. I really don't want to go into too much detail because it's really a personal matter on her part but her ex and the father of her child just won't leave her alone. It's been a year since they broke up and he started dating the person that he wanted to be with. I just don't understand why he just won't leave her alone. He's trying to ruin her military career at the moment. What he doesn't seem to understand is the military is really what is taking care of their child at the moment. Yes he has a job and insurance but Rhonda's job pays more and Jamison also is covered underneath her insurance plus a bunch of other benefits that he will loose if she gets kicked out of the military. Plus she is paying him child support at the moment while she is in Iraq and if she looses her job then the child support that he is receiving will be cut drastically. See his problem is he doesn't think before he does something. He is convinced that Rhonda wronged him. Never mind that he cheated on her more than once. He seems to think that she was a horrible girlfriend because she actually had a life outside of him. She loves to play softball and the only time she gets to play it is in the summer time. He doesn't want her to play softball. He wanted her to spend all of her free time with him and that's it. She refused so she wronged him. He has been doing whatever he can think of to try and ruin her life. He's suing her for 10,000.00 supposedly for pain and suffering and loss of enjoyment of life. According to him the night that she was moving out of their house and he came home from a hockey game and she assaulted him that she caused him to loose hearing in his left ear I think it is. Never mind that he drives 18 wheelers for a living. Has been since before they met which is a little over 5 years ago. It has been proven that they can cause hearing loss but he's using her as the excuse and now he's trying to get her kicked out of the military.
You know he would be a much happier person if he would concentrate on his life a little more and leave Rhonda's alone. Get his life cleaned up and stop doing the stuff that he's doing. He just frustrates me to know end. He doesn't take responsibility for anything that he does or says he just trys to blame it on others or convinces himself that it's their fault and he had nothing to do with it. Right after Rhonda left for Iraq he tried to get my husband thrown in jail and my kids taken away from me just because I testified in court for Rhonda against him and told the judge some things that he didn't want the judge to know about. Instead of taking responsibility for his actions he instead set it in his mind to get even with me and for what? It just goes to show that he's not a very good person.
God says that we are suppose to forgive. I'm trying to do good and forgive but it's very hard. He keeps doing things that just keeps making me want to slap some sense into him but even then I don't think that will work. All he thinks about is himself and that's it.
It's just very frustrating to see your best friend in pain and know that there is really nothing you can do but just sympathize with them. I hate to say this but right now I really wish something would happen to him and he would fall off the face of the earth never to be found again so Rhonda can have a little bit of peace in her life.
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