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'Belize Sunset'
"The most alluring clouds that mount the sky, Owe to a troubled element their forms, Their hues to sunset. If with raptured eye We watch their splendour, shall we covet storms..."
quote excerpted from miscellaneous sonnets, II by William Wordsworth 1888
14 Jun 2004 - Just a letter... or part of it.
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I write.... ( here for you now are portions of an e-mail I sent to a friend of mine, I edited out a lot of what was said, but left in a lot of what I would like to share, as my thoughts would be to post an entry here today of the same, and yet, I am too lazy to reproduce it, and too tired... besides, I have a book that is calling my name, and I would like to finish reading it. ) But please.... read on. I've been studying a lot, that's what I call it when I check out a lot of books from the library on a particular subject. When I first moved here to Pennsylvania, I was curious about the government of the common wealth system here, and the history of Pennsylvania. I checked out books on the early political parties as well. That was where my curiosities were when we got here. I learned a lot about the history of our country, more than I learned in school in California. Not the school systems fault however, my own fault for not caring then about it.
This week I've been studying up on Reincarnation, Psychic Mediums, Life after Death, the process of Dying, The Soul, Auras, and the development of spirit. It's interesting reading from different authors and it's been very interesting to me all of my life. I don't know if you knew that or not, but I have always been keenly aware that when we pass on we do not cease to exist, and that I believe with all my heart that life on the other side is full of beauty and more love than we can possibly remember here in this life on Earth, in this existence. We can only in our dreams return there for now... I think it's funny that death is so feared. I am not afraid of it. It will be the one time in my life when I know things that I can't know now. By this I mean in my "life" now.... for at the time of death, I will still be connected to this "lifetime" and my thoughts will be that of my loved ones here, and all those I've been in contact with here. Though I honestly do believe that most of those I love here have been in many lifetimes with me. There in the imaginations of us, do I ponder fantasies of past lives, and future lives, and then in this lifetime with so much love I conjure up ideas of who each of those I love is to me on the other side. I am very very much in love with Dan... I love him so much that it's dizzying in itself when I think of it, and look upon him, I can't fathom ever being without him. He has something about him that I just need so much to be a part of... his careful way of loving me, and caring for me, and making my life so wonderful just by his presence. I can't say that I have ever treasured another man so much before in this lifetime. When I hold him and he rolls over at night to snuggle up to me and I can smell him, and feel him close, his warmth, and all that love he has for me, It just takes me away to lifetimes of love in my heart that I feel returning like waves of happiness. I don't know how many times I've wondered this myself, but I know from what I am reading in books, that we live many lives, and love many many times, and that on the other side there is nothing wrong with loving very deeply many souls. The jealousy and selfishness here on Earth of a man and woman to love only one person and to be center stage with that one person only does not exist there, only here....
You know, with all my heart.... I am looking forward to the day when I meet up with you on the other side. What an experience it will be for you to review my life and to see, hear, feel and know all the love I felt for you that you couldn't possibly have known from here. Although, I doubt you'll need to review my life in this way to know I care for you so much,... it will be obvious once we meet there how much I care for you. and with that I will end here..... it's just a thought to know that once we pass over... those we have loved here have every opportunity of learning how much we actually did love them from our point of view.... every thing we have ever done, or said, every lie, will all be revealed as well as will every reason for which we lied, or did things that we did. We'll then and only then understand not only the reasons why one did what they did, but feel the guilt they felt after doing so.. or the pain, or joy, or whatever it might be. Thought love is the only emotion that matters, learning to love and forgive are the reasons we are here. Have a good one! :) *Peace* Rhonda P.S. to the one comment that I had yesterday.... regarding talking to the dead, I wish I could help you, but I can't.... not yet anyways. However, if it is in the stars that I should learn to do such things at will... I will do what I can to assist you. I promise. With Love..... Rhonda
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My perpetual mood: 
 | 'Forgotten Things' "Moreover, something is or seems,
That touches me with mystic gleams,
Like glimpses of forgotten dreams-- Of something felt, like something here;
Of something done, I know not where;
Such as no language may declare." Quote excerpted from "The Two Voices"
by Alfred Lord Tennyson
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