April 8, 2018

Another day has come, and evening is now here, it is past 9 PM now, with bed looming not too far away, and my IRIS worker has left an hour ago.  It was a very good day although for a Sunday it has been a very laidback sort of day.  I did not want to nothing except watch some NCIS: LA, Criminal Minds, read, and visit with my IRIS worker AR while she was here.  The season being spring, the weather has proven to be wintry and chilly.  The highest the weather has gotten today is about 40 degrees.  Spring is just around the corner somewhere.  Oh well.  That is the way it is for now…I guess.   I am not the only one complaining about the weather and wanting or wishing it to be a little warmer.

I have not really expressed my thoughts on some subjects lately because of time and, again, time has escaped me to express more thoughts on important subjects.  I have become a very busy gal since the beginning of March and that is not going to stop as long as I am able to get out and about.  Now with DKF, SF, and AR working for me through the company IRIS, I am happy and doing everything I can to be happy, comfortable, and plan ahead even though tomorrow is never promised except through prayer and God.  I have a boyfriend who is very sweet, kind, silly and funny, serious, and a gentleman, and with this man, I am very happy to have him in my life.  He is younger, but age does not matter anymore unless there is a reason for it.  It is not that I need a man in my life to be happy nor does any woman really need to have a man in their life to be happy, I have come to a crossroads in my own life that having a man in my life is part of my happiness I have had for a while.  Please do not worry about me.  I waited until I was stable emotionally to have a man in my life.  I have had my sights on this gentleman for a long time.  Getting rid of the stress was top priority outside God being first in my everyday life.  God should be first in everyone’s life although not everyone sees that.

Well, it is going to be 9:30 PM here in a few minutes and I am getting tired, and I have a couple of things to do before retiring to bed for the night.  I should be back tomorrow during the day somewhere even though the time is not known right now.  I just want to get through tonight first.

The First Day of 2018

Here I am!  I am not going to argue about the time I do not have to write in my journal anymore.  If I do not write every day, I won’t complain and move on with my life into the next if God allows.  Writing in a journal is something I do or do not do … making time for it is going to happen from this day forward.  I may write or I may not.  I am not going to complain.

The title being “The First Day of 2018 does not hold any real significance here except that 2017 is now gone forever except through memories of the heart, mind, soul, pictures, and words.  No, I did not celebrate New Year’s this year.  To be very honest, I haven’t celebrated New Years for a few years now.  It is not that I am not into that sort of thing, it’s harder to stay up past 9 PM most nights now.   My thoughts about celebrating New Years are not that no one should celebrate something special and big as a new year coming into play, I just do not find being in crowds pleasurable anymore.  I’d rather sit at home, watch TV, read a good book, snuggle up with my cat Bing Crosby, have a friend over to watch a movie or something, but I’d prefer to have time for myself.

I do not believe in making New Year resolutions.  I believe in making plans and sticking with them from day to day that includes good health choices, staying on top of my kidney disease and medical needs, and getting through one day at a time no matter the season or day it is.  I do believe that making New Year resolutions will end up being broken later in the first month of the New Year — like a promise being broken and hurting someone in the process, and I will not make any promises unless I can keep them.

I have been reflecting on my 2017 year today as well as keeping up with a new plan I do planning on keeping day to day.  I started that new plan yesterday, December 31, 2017, and so far, it feels really good to have a schedule in mind.  What is she talking about?  I am glad you asked that question…thought of it anyway.  I take time for God every morning before my personal cares worker DK gets here, do some devotional readings throughout the day, and this year I have begun reading a series of books written by a Seventh-day Adventist/author named Ellen G. White. You can find information about her at www.ellengwhiteestate.com any time and every day.  I am reading the first book of the Great Conflict of Ages series: “Patriarchs and Prophets”. I am going to be reading what chapter is scheduled for that day sometime in the afternoon.  I do love God for everything He has done for me as well as what He will do for me, but my study habits and time with God is not desirable in His standards — my thinking anyway.  I NEED to take time for God daily from this day forward and that is exactly what I am going to do.  How else am I going to learn to be the best Christian out there?  I am a work in progress.

As my day continues into evening and time to relax, and be comfortable for retiring to bed for the night, I do have to admit that today has been a very good day for the first day of 2018.  I do not feel stressed, anxious, or overthinking anything, or worried.  It feels good to be relaxed, limber as I can be with cerebral palsy (CP), strong, and independent.  It may be very cold outside right this minute because we are in our winter season in good ol’ Wisconsin, but I am warm enough in my apartment right now.  I have had to workers come into my home today looking like they came in from the arctic the way they were dressed this morning.  I felt for them.  I have been out in real cold temperatures traipsing to school this time of year from kindergarten to 12th grade of high school, and some college courses at our nearby 2-year college.  Today, I am not so brave or daring.

It is time for me to stop journaling.  I need to sit back and relax a bit.  With my schedule in the works now, I haven’t had the time to read a book for pleasure outside “Patriarchs and Prophets” this afternoon, and I have some thoughts about the first chapter I have read yet to do before I get ready for bed as well.  I wish, like everyone else, that there was more time in the day to do everything that needs to be done or wanted to get done, but that is only a wish that is indeed unrealistic.  God has given us enough time in a day to get things done for six days a week, and then on the seventh day of the week, He wants to rest and remember Him, relax and do nothing that is considered work unless you are in the medical field or missionary helping people out.