Church and My World


Last week and today I went to church because I felt I was on fire for the Lord and when it came to the music. I could not stop singing, and dancing with my feet, stepping in time with the beat of the music and words, as if no one could stop me.  I cannot, like I once did, carry a tune like I used to but God does not care if you are out of tune or can not sing.  It makes me wonder why some churchgoers, not the young kids, would not just sing their best.  God does not care if you can not carry a tune.  Your voice, singing in church, is already perfect for God. I really enjoyed myself today.  Even the worship service, discussion we are having right now – in Galatians – is putting me  in time with God as well.  The only thing that did not happen today was the fact I did not go to Sunday School this morning so my morning and afternoon is pretty much free and filled with nothing but relaxation to some point.

My World

CSE went out for a while – not at her apartment – so I did not see her until 830 pm or so.  Before I invited her to come down, I decided to take time for myself and get some activity done this afternoon while I listened, lip synced, and danced to music I  enjoy listening to.  By the time evening rolled around and it was time for me cool down and relax for the night and get comfortable, I had taken 3,881 steps in my day and had 16 minutes of activity on my I had a nice work out right here at home.

A Quickie

Hello and good morning!  I will be getting ready for church in a few minutes.  I am going to church.  I went last week.  My ride will be here at 9 am this morning to go to the 930 am service.  I will not be going to Sunday school today because my ride – the family – who is taking me, have other plans this afternoon.  This will leave my afternoon to do some things around the apartment when I get back before I settle down for the rest of the day and evening.  I have some things I can do before living in front of the computer/laptop and reading all day, lol.  I am looking forward to this day and the entirety of it no matter what goes on in it.  So unlike last week, I believe this week is not going to be super duper busy like last week.  I hope everyone has a good day and God bless.  I hope to be back and get my journal updated on the days I was unable to write.

LS Will Be LS and Not Allowing It

JSL is right when it comes to LS being LS.  Several days ago I was told by her and A that if I turned MW in, LS would never speak to me ever again … then, A calls me and tells me that he has a friend who lives in our building and he told LS this and she then believed that it was me he was referring to and A told her no.  She still was adamant that it was me and told A that she was no longer going to be my friend anymore and never speak to me ever again.  I did not even care if she never spoke to me ever again anyway by this time and after hearing this from A, I have vowed I would never really get involved with his constant talk about LS trying to call him over and over again.  Anyway…

LS called my cell last night and left a message … as if nothing ever happened between us several days ago.  I was not impressed or even wanting to talk to her.  I did not call her back.  I did not want to deal with her drama or the fact that she is in an abusive relationship with MW.  MW is a jerk and he treats LS like dirt and I just can not deal with her constantly having problems with him.  He gets angry with her often and he does say the most awful things about her when she is not around.  I rarely see MW alone because LS is always with him. They go out to eat at McDonalds every night and LS is a lot heavier than I am.  I believe LS does not have the understanding and mental compacity to know what a relationship is all about.  Not talking to LS now is not a loss for me at all.

I have decided to not talk to A anymore either.  Not having A as a friend, too, is no long for me, too.  I have had a very busy week and when he called me last weekend, I was finding myself a little overwhelmed with a few things without anxiety and very very busy on top of it all week long.  I do not have any time any longer for drama and people talking over and over about one thing as if obsessed with it.  AARRGG!!