Okay, pain and I do not get along at all. My pain threshold is very small and I can feel every ache and pain now and then. It can be rather scary sometimes. Today the pain/ache is not scary at all… just unbearable sometimes. It comes and goes as usual. I think that I am having some aches is because I have my dratted period right now but I am still glad I get my period every month on time regularly. I have had my walk this morning while shopping at Wal-Mart Superstore so walking is not necessary anymore today. I walked a lot today from one end of the store to the other and back to the nearest door to the vehicle JP and I came in. I was even limber enough to get in and out of the vehicle without a problem and that made me feel real good. I do have some good upper strength. With my little aches and pains coming and going – cramps also coming and going in my right foot, I am hanging in there. My ankles do not seem to be swelling much today either – a side affect I have before and during my period – not too bad today or this time around. I have not cried a lot before my period came but I think that my major anxiety/panic attack was what happened this time – two weeks before my period actually finally arrived. AARRGG!! So I have an ouch today… I will be okay.
Now that I have an ouch today, I am laying low somewhat but still do what I can and be lazy all day. My period is heavy today so I am laying low and comfortable and feeling I am changing every hour.Sorry for the grossness everyone but I do feel gross today until after my evening shower at 730 pm.… Just remember that I will tell like it is at times. I will be okay. It is only 230 pm in the afternoon. I have watched Mission Impossible, Judge Judy, Charmed, and did some reading this afternoon. All seems to be in order for now… All is good now.
Maybe more later…
I wanted to say hello!
I have done my walk this morning while at Wal-Mart while shopping. Got picked up at 8 am and got shopping done by 9 this morning and home between 930 – 10 am this morning, The office at TM was yet not open when I got home. JP and I put groceries away and she stayed for a few minutes and then left leaving me to defend for self for the rest of the day and early evening – 730 pm – 845 pm shower tonight. Yay! I am looking forward to seeing KB tonight and tomorrow. I like KB, RK, YE very much. I did like DB once but not anymore. I believe we got too close and things just got rocky and problematic for both of us – I was deeply hurt by DB’s all of a sudden actions of craziness I guess. Yes, I am still remembering her too well yet. Anyway… I can definitely say it is a good afternoon.
I thought I would come here now and say a quick hello a good night early because I really need to concentrate on my reading right now. I am pretty much written out my life for Thursday, March 8, 2012. I have gotten my needed phone call from my kidney coordinator, JS, a little bit ago regarding a generated letter that I received in error and JS said they, Madison, does not have a problem with me getting my labs drawn, seen by a doctor, or warranting any health concerns from my end at all. JS would never have a problem refilling my needed prescription medications for my kidney transplant of almost 24 years whatsoever when theJan letter stated they would not fill any prescriptions until I saw my doctor and or had my labs drawn. Even JS made sure to tell me that she got my message from last week regarding getting my monthly labs drawn here in Janesville, Wisconsin at the clinic I now go to after Dr. H has left and I have not returned – new doctor – new clinic. That was all taken care of. I even talked to the worker at the Job Center regarding my MA/Food Stamp review this afternoon after the lunch hour. I had gotten my walk regimen in and I even talked to NMS a little while ago about some happy news for a new kidney transplant patient who has been awaiting a new kidney – cadaver of course – soon to come in. My kidney coordinator is on call tonight – organ call they call it. How exciting. I think that is what I heard this evening. I wish the very best for this new patient this very moment in my own little life. I even called my favorite middle school teacher a while ago and we chatted for a while before she had to go and finish getting dinner ready for the evening for her and her husband. All seems well in the front lines tonight. Now, not totally sure yet, but I am expecting company around 7 pm tonight. I really do not trust CSE anymore and she NEEDS to develop her trust again with me big time, but she is going to be company tonight. Sometimes, most of the time, I know when she is trying to get online upstairs because I cannot get online down here and I asked her to come down and use the internet here on her computer so there is no connection problems for me tonight. I told her that it can be very frustrating if I am in the middle of something and all of a sudden I cannot get online to finish what I am trying to do – failing. I hate failure and failing. I want success in life – failure does not exist in my world anymore. I hope to God she shows up tonight. I still believe her excuse yesterday that her darn caen t was being problematic was a very lame excuse and she could have yet come down and helped me through the damn night. She can be so damn selfish even though she did say she came down to let me know – I did not ever hear a darn knock on my door and I do not believe she even knocked at my door while I was gone Monday. I was here ALL day Tuesday and she said she knocked at my door. No she did not! I believe she lied to me big time again. Trust is a big issue with me and she is going to have to build her trust again – entirely. I do not think I will ever trust her anymore anyways. She has burned too many darn bridges with me.
Well I guess “A Quickie” is the wrong title for this entry, hmmm? I believe so. Not funny but true in the mostest. Well good night and God bless all of my Dear Diary friends. Have a great night. I am off to do other important things such as read and take care of my emotional needs before company, if company, arrives at 7 pm as planned. Ahhh, gotta run and play Scrabble and Words With Friends. Good bye for now.