The neighbor upstairs above me has been noisy the past half hour. I have turned down the TV so she cannot hear it anymore tonight. I am not sure if I want to know this neighbor so I am keeping my distance and away from her – if I see her, I will be nice, but I am not going to become friends with any more neighbors in this building. I have problems with relationships these days anyway. Always have had problems with relationships because I was never taught how to have a good relationship with someone … always have bneen on my own two feet anyways. I am hoping that the noise this new neighbor has been making has died down for the night now so we all can get a decent night of rest and sleep. I wonder if her next door neighbor has any problems with her – I hope not. I am feeling this new neighbor is someone I find not trustworthy. She has a beautiful dog but that’s about it I can really say about her right now. I believe we have started off on the wrong foot the moment she moved in – after her little visitor was heard screaming and jumping off furniture onto the floor right above me, and constantly crying. Another AARRGG!!

I will be back tomorrow. Good night for sure now. Boy… venting a lot lately AGAIN! Dang!

Final Thoughts of the Night, Good Night & God Bless

Final Thoughts of the Night

CSE has just left. We were watching “Switched At Birth” together for a long time and we watched last week’s episode tonight – a week off … so we are going to watch tonight’s episode later in the week before next Tuesday’s episode. CSE was planning on leaving before the show ended but she did stay to watch the entire show before leaving when she learned that I could fast forward past the commercials, lol. She had come back down after checking on her cat and told me that he was feeling better but still would hibernate in the bedroom under the bed. That is normal when an animal does not feel good. Bing takes leave from me during the week from time to time and sleeps in another room when he does not want nothing to do with me but he always make himself known. Speaking of him making himself known, I need to get off the computer for the night because my melatonin is now doing its sleep trick on me and he wants my lap to be free from my laptop so he can cuddle with me for the night. So…

Good Night & God Bless

Good night and God bless. I will be back tomorrow morning sometime before my 1030 am – 11:45 shower with RK. RK is here the rest of the month and then DB should be back in February again. Good night! Sleep well my friends!

It’s Later…

CSE did arrived within ten minutes after she texted me she was coming now. She has just left a few minutes ago to check on her cat and she told me her cat had a slight temp. That may not be a good sign and I told her she needs to a hold of her cat’s vet to let him know. She said she will if he does not feel any better in a couple of days… I disagree with her idea of calling her vet if her cat is not feeling any better in a couple of days but then again I am not CSE. She has to do what her heart tells her. I would be on the phone with the vet immediately if Bing was running a temp. Excuse me for having my reservations on what CSE told me about her cat having a slight temp. She has lied to me many times before and I hope she is not lying about Ethan not feeling good today – if he was not feeling good today, she should have told me when I asked her to come down – why tell me practically 5 hours later? Sometimes I find how CSE executes her words with everyone in her life. I am not sure what to believe with CSE anymore. I did not say anything on how she was handling the situation because I am sick and tired of not understanding her and did not want to get into another argument with her or anyone. I have my monthly right now and giving her the benefit of the doubt the best I can. AARRGG!! I do hope, if Ethan is not feeling well tonight, he feels better soon and I hope it is nothing serious and CSE loses Ethan to something very serious. I hope not! Ethan may be the “wild cat” and CSE has mixed feelings towards him practically a year later, I do have to say I wish Ethan not to be a sick cat any time. Boy… do I still my dratted issues with CSE and they are driving me crazy right now because I have my monthly right now. How many more chances can I give CSE now? AARRGG!!! She still frustrates me!!!! I still believe it was a mistake for her to move back in the building and I know now it was the influence of NMS that had CSE move back in here. I just wish that her ex-husband would stop coming over here! I think their friendship is not healthy but who will listen to me – NMS really doesn’t hear me, and CSE closes me out and acts funny. I no longer write about CSE when she is here now – have a feeling she will overlook my shoulders and watch me writing about her and NMS! That would NOT be good!!!! I hate it when people overlook my shoulder – another pet peeve of mine she definitely knows about but yet I do not trust her entirely right now – her lies ring too close to memory. Bing loves her to pieces and I can not dissolve that bond but I do not like how she thinks she knows Bing better than me! Bing and I have our communication down pat. We rarely talk to one another but we do communicate our way. Bing is not like Emilee, my first cat I had for 16 1/2 years. Bing is Bing.

More later… hopefully. It might be a late night again tonight … I took a melatonin a few minutes ago and it will take a while for it to kick in and do its job tonight but I will not be up super duper late. For now… Later…

Soon To Be Evening Now

I am here with CSE’s stuff – she has my keys to my apartment – and she has been gone for over an hour to go check on her cat. She texted me a awhile ago letting me know she is grabbing a sandwich and yet has not returned. I just do not understand her and never will. She is not the same person I met in 1998 when I first moved in here. We were real good friends for a long time until she got married and her husband and I had a falling out because I did not believe the person who was looking for her was her cousin or did I ask NMS if this person who was looking for CSE was her cousin. The woman who was in my apartment was a total stranger acting very strange and asking me questions I could not answer because I did not know CSE anymore – when she was CKR – and her husband made sure I knew that he was pissed off at me about the matter. That is why I have this very bad and sick feeling about CSE’s relationship with her ex-husband and new wife today – knowing that one day JR is going to find another woman and leave his now wife for a new woman. He is on his 4th marriage now and when he married CSE/CKR his first wife had died before their divorce was finalized and he was dating CSE at the time he was separated from his 1st wife. This guy does not know how to keep to one person – a player and a loser. He is one reason why I do not date at my age of 41 now. I believe CSE has had a troubled life all her life and that is one reason why she made a new name for herself a few months ago and now she is trying to erase the CKR she once was the wrong way. CSE needs help and I still have this feeling that our friendship will always be rocky because I do not understand her today and never have understood her when we reconnected January 2011 – I was so excited seeing her again for a while until I got to know her again. What her ex-husband did to me still rings in my memory very loudly every time I hear CSE is with him aassnd I despise the asshole very much – knowing that his now wife will be divorcing him soon. I hate the guy very much and never cared for the asshole ever since that faithful night. NMS took his side on the whole matter and did blame me for CSE not having any contact with her cousin for a long time after that. Well… what else could I have done – I did not know her cousin and I really do not like her cousin very much this day even.

Is this all I can do lately… vent?! People I associate with or don’t care to associate won’t let the past lie where it belongs – IN THE PAST!!!

I texted CSE a moment ago asking her when she will be back down and she texting me she is coming now. It will be another twenty minutes because Ethan will get out of the apartment and run down the hallway and she will be chasing after him for a while because he knows how to avoid her. She does have to come back anyway. She has my house keys!

More later…

Deletion of Entries This Morning, Good Afternoon, and the Need to Vent Again

Deletion of Entries This Morning

Please forgive me for deleting entries this morning – having written and then deleted. I was having problems with my submit button this morning and ended up having my entries post several times!! I decided to delete all entries and start fresh again when I could. I know that it showed that I wrote an entry today and then no one could see it because I deleted it. I had to do it – will restart from fresh once again now.

Good Afternoon

I kind of missed the good morning to everyone this morning so I am saying good afternoon now, and going on with my day.

The Need to Vent Today


I am still royally pissed at NMS for what she did last week. Even last night she pissed me off even more for telling me that she could not get a hold of anyone after 430 pm in regard to the smell in her apartment and she wanted me to pass on the message to CSE. I am beginning to feel that CSE has been sucked into the problem at hand about NMS’s apartment and CSE is helping her out. CSE has her opinion, she told me last night about what the smell is and left it at that. I still believe that NMS is causing trouble all over again and I am still pissed about last week!!! I still hope she does not come back home for a very long time yet – in nursing home after being discharged from hospital – she needs to live in a nursing home now as many times as she has been hospitalized in the past month – 3 times now! I do not want her back here at the building anymore. She needs to move out. Maybe she will yet if the smell in her apartment is not resolved. I could not see her moving into another apartment on the second or third floor anyway. There will be something terribly wrong with those apartments as well according to NMS. NMS has been causing trouble for the past three years since her niece has been fired from her job and NMS reminds me about that from time to time by telling me that I would not sign a petition to keep her niece working here. That happened three years ago or so and her niece is still holding that against me to this very day. I deleted and blocked her niece from my Facebook page because of how I get treated to this day by NMS and LS. It makes me sick! If NMS does not live here anymore, another troublemaker will be out of here, and another negative person is out of my life for good. NMS talks to me about acting like a Christian all the time and she has been acting like someone who is not a Christian herself! She is two-faced. I am beginning to feel that CSE is two-faced as well now too.
Still A Fault Finder

My close BFF is still a fault finder in my book. She had written me a long winded email yesterday, and I began reading it and deleted it within the 1st two sentences because I saw nothing but her pointing out my faults and saying she is sick and tired of me repeating myself. Anytime she points out on others she wants us to comply to her but once we point out her faults, she become the bitch from hell and gets so damn mouthy about it and threatens to get her parents involved. She is a fault finder and never will I ever introduce her to my friends again because problems come and go and she ends up having a big problem keeping her mouth shut. She got all pissy about the fact that I continued to text her over the weekend when she told me if I had a problem, I could. She lied to me and if I tried to explain it to her that she said I still could if I had a problem and needed to vent, she would call me a liar and that she never said such a thing. She lies to me still to this day much worse than CSE ever lied to me last year in 2011. My friend just does not understand me at all – does not accept me for who I am then. I do not always believe everything she tells me anymore because of her not accepting me entirely as she says.

My friend texted me this morning that she was done trying to accept her husband’s sisters into her world because they do not accept her. I have a feeling why she is not accepted into the family like she hoped but can not say why – assuming is not good – do not want to make an ass out of her and me at this time really. I have issues with her attitude on a regular basis and her attitude is going to get her in big trouble again one day and I am going to let other people see her attitude and deal with her if she gets out of line – not with me this time! I am positive that my friend’s husband’s ex-wife was well liked by the sounds of it and I believe my friend is very jealous of it. My friend thinks that her husband’s ex-wife is a bitch too, lol. Jealousy seems to be a problem for JSL these days – opinion only that is. JSL does not always get her way and she puts up a big fight until she gets her way all the time and lying is one way. The strangest thing is that her parents know I would pipe up and say the truth when it comes to their daughter lying. AARRGG!!!


I just do not understand why CSE has to go check on her cat every two hours! That poor cat probably thinks CSE is a nut for not allowing him to be a plain old cat! Her cat has been trouble from day one when she got him and he can still be trouble – chewing on cords, biting hard, and running out of the apartment every time the door is opened. CSE does not have the energy to go chasing him all the time. The horror of hearing her scream and holler at him a couple of times frightens me as well – he does not listen to her at all because of that. Never put two male cats together! Her cat is a big bully to Bing and he is never allowed to come down here anymore because of it – bit him and put a scratch on one of Bing’s ears that healed but took a while. Ethan would not be allowed to chew on anything of value – cords – in my place and get away with it. CSE would be paying for anything Ethan destroys in my home – that is another good reason why he is not allowed to come for a visit. He is too wild and I call him “wild boy” all the time. He does not sit still. I have heard CSE going back and forth about keeping Ethan all the time and I told her maybe she should because he is too much for her and she got all upset about it – speaking the truth does hurt – and I had to say so. I was getting and still sick and tired of hearing it about her wanting to keep Ethan. Even though I am upset with NMS, we both agreed that Ethan is too much for CSE and the moment he started destroying her things, she should get rid of him – NMS and I would never allow our pets – NMS does not have any pets anymore because she is allergic to cats and dogs now but would never allow a pet to destroy her things. The way her apartment is so cluttered now, no one can even get into her place and feel like it is home. I don’t know what happened to NMS’s cleanliness “attitude”!!! AARRGG!!! At least we agree on some things still when it comes to our concern for CSE. I am still working on understanding CSE yet to this day and yet I believe that our friendship will be dissolved one day yet. I still do not have any patience with her lateness. She has been up to her place for over an hour now and has not returned yet! AARRGG!!

Gotta Go For Now

I have to head off for a while. I will be back later. I am catching up on some TV shows I recorded. More later… Good bye for now…

That Feeling Has Come Back!

That horrible feeling has come back even though NMS is oblivious to what I am truly feeling right now – about her apartment and the smell she is dealing with. She is still in the nursing home and her doctor has yet not released her from the confines of the nursing home yet – hopefully won’t for a long time yet. I have this horrible feeling that she has brought CSE into her dirty deeds by telling her about the illness she keeps getting, the visit from the health department, and now she is trying to get a hold of some other people about the smell in her apartment.

Good Morning

It is a very cold morning today – winter is definitely here now. We had more snow and freezing drizzle last night bringing the roads to its slippery state here in our City of Janesville. Friends on Facebook are already saying the roads are slippery this early morning. Anyway… safe inside and warm and waiting for JP to arrive to help clean and do laundry this morning. Yes, JP is back and we talked briefly last night before 9 pm. She ended up having an infection and needed to be put on an antibiotic last week. She is definitely feeling better now – thank goodness. I do not know if I could take another day without JP in my world this new week.

I am off in a tangent again! Good morning and God bless and have a good day everyone. I have a semi-busy morning starting at 8 am today and then the rest of my week is all mine – showers and no appointments – thank goodness! I need a break from appointments for a while anyway.

More later…