Not So Hunky Dory Now!

I wish I could say I am one happy camper but I can’t lie. I am one very pissed 41 year old woman right now. I wish that NMS would never come back here after her stay at the Cedar Crest Nursing home she is yet. She can damn well stay there for all I care now. She is a bitch like her niece and our last onsite manager JL! She had to stoop as low as the lowest scum of the earth – dirt!!! That royal bitch! I thought I understood NMS but never have understood all these years after all. It is no one’s fault that she keeps getting ill in her apartment here – as she claims it is mine and CSE’s fault this time – NOT! Our property manager got in trouble for something that is not even his fault and this building has been habitable to live in ever since I have moved in and NMS’s apartment is not habitable?! I know damn well that it is not my fault, or CSE’s, that NMS got sick this time – so that went in one ear and out the other ear very quickly yetn nursd it pissed me off. I am an all new pissed off after what NMs has now done – a new thing. Her family is very sick bunch of people and NMS is very sick in the damn head more than ever. Her doctors have yet not said that she needs to stay in a nursing home yet but should real soon. I hope and wish that NMS never returns back to Teamster Manor ever again. Nothing is no longer going to be hunky dory for her or anyone here anymore. I hope she gets evicted from this place – she’s a very big troublemaker and has been one since her niece was here as manager the second time and the manager before KR, another manager who did not do half the job she was supposed to do. NMS needs prayers and I do to for such hatred in my heart right now towards a woman I love so dearly and call mom. Dang! I am royally pissed now – for the last time – with NMS and it won’t be the same.


KB will be here within a half an hour now and we will having my shower at 730 pm. I am so looking forward to it. KP and I went grocery shopping today and I got what I needed and wanted at the store before coming back home by 3 pm. Dr. Phil did not interest me today so I deleted the program from my DVR box. I do not like men and women in such competitions regarding beauty and health anymore than the next person and the show Dr. Phil aired today was not of any interest of mine at all today.


JSL is royally pissed off right now and I do not blame her. We have been talking back and forth through text from one cell to another cell between one another. I am royally pissed as well. Now I am watching an episode of Anderson about women loving criminal inmates! WOW! Strange if you really want to know – sick as well. Strange people!!! Here JSL was not going to text me anymore this weekend and now her being pissed off, we are chatting. AARRGG!!


KP just called and she is now leaving Beloit. She said that the roads are still kind of slick so she will call me again to let me know she is almost at the apartment building so I can meet her at the front door to go grocery shopping. Yay! I am just about out of here for a while even though I wish not to go out in the cold and snowy outdoors today or any day – not a kid anymore. I do wonder how cold it really is outdoors this afternoon. I am so looking forward to grocery shopping – love KP so much – a good substitute when JP is not available but miss JP this week very much. Hope she feels better real soon – poor girl! Before too long, I will be leaving my quiet home to be out in such a noisy world of Wal-Mart. I feel I am barking up a tree at the moment – daring to go outside on a cold day as this but I do have groceries to get for the weekend before I run out of some important items. I love grocery shopping very much – a major chance to get out of this noisy, forsaken building I live in – some tenants are idiots. AARRGG!!

More later …

Waiting Patiently Here Now

I am watching an episode of “Mission Impossible” starring Steven Hill, Martin Landau, Greg Morris (Deceased), Barbara Bain, and Peter Lupus – actually listening to – while I sit and wait for KP to come and take me grocery shopping this afternoon. I say I am listening to the program because I am busy playing games on the computer at Facebook this time of the day – lunch hour – waiting patiently at the moment but definitely growing discontent and wanting to get out for a while yet today and back home and get ready for my 730 – 845 pm company and shower time. When the phone rang a few minutes ago, I thought it was KP calling me to let me know she was on her way but it was a telemarketer calling and so I disconnected their connection to my phone since they NEVER leave a message in regard to why they are calling – a rudeness I find a major pet peeve of mine. A rudeness I cannot stand. I have enough from a certain HI calling me and not leaving a message when she calls and she NEVER gets the message that I want nothing to do with her because she is constantly ill and never talks about anything other than her stupid seizures and epilepsy episodes the doctors can not help with proper dose of meds. HI needs to be in a nursing home now – she has too many seizures and she does not take care of herself. She is a very ill woman today and will never get better. I just wish she would just leave me alone – I do not want to be in her life – too negative for me. I hate her with a passion and she does not get the message. Why does she bother calling me! She is not very bright. I hate talking ill of HI but she is a very ill person and she needs help in her world today or she will not have any friends left who really care. I just don’t care about her anymore – annoying she is. So here I am waiting patiently for KP to take me shopping and I have too much time to think once again. Geez!

Another Vent But Not One

I will never go back to a standard cell phone ever again. I love my Smartphone – Motorola ATrix 4G. I had to get a new one because the refurbished one I had was defective and it crashed the second day I had it, and I needed to get a new one – half the cost of the original price because of that fact that I am a valued customer to AT&T for a very long time now – a constellation to the one that was defective as well. My Papa has had so much trouble with his Motorola Atrix 4G that he went to a different phone and from what I understand, his friend and my mom, and I are the only ones who have the same phone now – unless Mom changed phones too. Papa has so many toys now-a-days that it almost makes me sick with disgust that he would brag about his toys all the time. LLL is a boy at heart with all his toys, too. Here I have a desktop computer, two laptops, an iPod, a Kindle, smartphone, cordless land line phone, a standard corded phone in my bedroom to use, a nice TV I have had for a few years, a VCR, a DVD player for the TV, my laptops,, and many flash drives for my use only, and I do not sit there and brag about them like Papa does. Yes, I love my smartphone and will never go back to a standard phone again, and use it everyday to play my gaming apps, text friends and family, and being a braggart is not my thing. Dang It’s LLL’s thing though. I wish he would grow up and be a man instead of a boy now – he is going to be 61 years old this May! Oh yes, he has motorcycles, too that he brags about. Fine and good, but I need not to have my riches rubbed in so hard practically everyday now – it can stop anytime. I live on a limited income – so what! Dang! I can manage just fine and balance my own checkbook – love doing that too as silly as it may sound – and take care of myself. My mother taught me how to manage my checkbook and she was an awesome and good teacher – a teacher she is today for many students who love her to pieces and that poor woman should be retired and enjoying retirement at her age of 67 but no, because of LLL’s toys and wanting new stuff all the time – she has to be the bread winner of the family to get all the bills paid and the house paid off. They are supposedly broke and not have any money after spending three years on the road travelling in an RV and had to move back to their home and evict the couple who practically destroyed the house and it had several repairs done to it when Mom and LLL moved back into the home. We can not trust no one anymore these days! Dang! So Papa needs to stop being such a braggart and grow up – a LLL trait that I actually still love about him because he is the very man who got me so very interested into computers at the age of 12 and I had gotten my first gaming computer when I was 17 that had become a dinosaur within two years – Commodore 64C! I have upgraded to better things of course, lol, and enjoy my toys – what I have – very much. You have to love my Papa or just hate him – that’s all I can really say. I do love my Papa very much. He knows and makes me feel I exist! He is a very caring and loving Papa and he loves my mom very much too. I have known LLL ever since I was about 10 years old and I remember the 1st birthday gifts he gave me – Still have the barrettes he gave me and I am now 41 years old and will be 42 in July!

More later. I still have to eat breakfast and take my morning meds. Later…

Good Morning and the Need to Vent Already This Morning!

Good Morning

I wanted to wish my Dear Diary friends and readers a good morning. We surely do have a very winter wonderland this morning and someone is out in the parking lot taking care of the very snowy parking lot this morning or using a snow blower on the snowy sidewalk that surrounds the btuilding. It looks and feels cold outdoors this early morning. I have been up since 7 am watching recorded TV shows – another recorded episode of Scared Straight that recorded last night at 9 pm and I had dozed off for the night by then or just did not pay any attention to anything on TV because I was reading a little before heading to bed – falling asleep. Fell asleep in my recliner with Bing on my lap most of the ni I ssght. What a good kitty he is. Good morning and God bless!

The Need to Vent

I have no idea what goes on in my friend JSL’s head every morning when I text her – always pointing out my damn faults and saying that I just cannot send her a simple good morning text instead of a book and then says LOL. It is demeaning and mean of her and I wish she would stop and listen to herself and stop being a bitch every freaking morning! I wonder why I am still friends with her if she treats me like an idiot every day lately. I do wish to dissolve my friendship with her sometimes but do not dare because she will be an even bigger bitch and start a damn physical fight with anyone when she does not get her damn way all the time and she will drag her poor parents into our fight and cause even more, bigger problems. That girl belongs in jail for half the crap she has pulled in the past two years or back on probation to teach her a damn lesson about life. She still causes a lot of friction in her friendships by what she says by how she says things – causing problems. I might have to dissolve our friendship yet! Dang!

I am so glad that NMS had this very important talk with CSE about how concerned we have been about CSE lately. From what I have been told, the other day, CSE had gotten upset and only for a short time after NMS consoled her that we had every right to be concerned and CSE better get a reality check on things in her world before she gets upsets at either one of us. Even with that said, CSE is the very one who needs to change and neither NMS or I could change her. CSE does need to get her life on track and realize that neither NMS or I would hurt her but we will speak the truth and the truth does hurt. I have told CSE many times and I will remind her from time to time that she needs to get her life back on track before she loses anymore friends and family members because of her attitude towards people. I know her family does not really care about her and the other day she had seen a relative who just showed up at her door to see for a while. Her relatives need to get her help for her health issues because CSE will not take care of herself properly. She sleeps all the time, does not have any energy, her relationship with her ex-husband and his new wife is strange and looks rather strange to others – I have had people come to me and ask why CSE acts the way she does, she yells at her poor cat all the time – says she is not sure if she is going to keep him or not and he does not pay attention to discipline – because she yells at him all the time. Her yelling at her cat Ethan all the time has been heard by other tenants and even from outside the building. NMS and I both know that she has sleep apnea and needs to take care of it. CSE’s health is going downhill very fast from what we see and we are very concerned for her, and do not want her in the hospital again because she is not taking care of herself properly which we knew she is not taking care of herself properly at all. We even think that she gets so depressed and will harm herself one day yet. I still do not feel sorry for CSE at all. What she does to herself is out of my control and if she chooses not to have me in her life, that is her choice – not mine. I do not wish to have her in my life everyday either because she is onoe strange young lady! She is very strange in her demeanor and attitude she has developed with her new and legalized name – once CKR and now CSE. I still do not understand why she changed her name but can only assume – correctly from NMS’s findings – why she changed her name and why is definitely not a mystery whatsoever! She is one strange person and other tenants are not comfortable with her around. She is a big help for Bing and I, though.


JP is still out sick today so I will not see her until next week or when she does return back to work. So, today, my schedule has been slightly altered and changed – a small change – and I will not be going grocery shopping at Wal-Mart until this afternoon after 11 am. Another worker from IDS is taking JP’s place today – like Tuesday – her name being KP – love that person very much. She is the one who brought me home from the hospital after being discharged. Because of the weather outdoors being a very white winter wonderland, I am going grocery shopping and coming back home and staying home all weekend and not going anywhere – even church. Too cold out right now. Brrr!!!

I have to go and get some breakfast. I will be back later.