One More and Final Thought

I forgot to talk about something… aarrgg!!! Anyway…here it goes…

With October coming, this is the month of Halloween, trick and treating for the kids, and the holiday parties begin before Christmas – Thanksgiving plans on many minds. Anyway… Halloween is on my mind but it is not anything good in my way of thinking. I remember having fun dressing up in a costume of some kind and going door to door in the country and in the city here in Janesville, but the joy of Halloween no longer exists but in memory of my past enjoyment. Today I do not see the meaning of Halloween anymore knowing what Halloween and Hallow’s Eve is really all about religiously. It does not seem the same anymore anyway with the fact that kids have to go out trick and treating door to door when it still daylight out and be done within two hours whereas when I was younger, we would be out even after dark for more than two hours. So many dangers out there today with strange and wacky people wanting to harm people and animals during the Halloween evenings. AARRGG!!! I am so glad I do not have any kids myself or having to explain why they would not go out trick and treating like other kids. I enjoy my life without kids even though having my own children did exist at one time or another. Watching kids go trick and treating today is no fun and where I live, door to door trick and treaters are not allowed in the building so that there is peace in the building during that time anyway.

Even though my beliefs and understanding of Halloween is only opinion – one opinion anyway – I still understand other people when it comes to differences and changes about Halloween. I will NEVER put my beliefs and understanding of Halloween or any other kind of celebration onto other people because religion, sex, and politics are 3 subjects to talk about with other people is so diverse and everyone believes differently…that’s okay and fine by me. I just will no longer celebrate the Halloween day with anyone. It no longer feels right in my heart and mind, spiritually, to celebrate such a day as Halloween anymore.

With that said and my final thought is out in the open, I can say good night and God bless and definitely come back tomorrow sometime. Good night!

Ahhhh, Kate is no longer living here in this building! Yay! She is goone for good. Good bye Kate! I hope you are happy in your new place and do have a good life. I will not see you anymore!! Another yay!!! Bye for now.

My Evening #2

I am here to say good night and God bless. My shower was taken and now I am dressed for the night for bed and getting tired. I am not having CSE come down anymore this weekend at this time unless she comes down to get the key to go take care of CD’s cat Oreo but otherwise CSE is no longer welcome here this weekend. We need a break from one another again. I do know that I have said she was a bitch and all in my afternoon entry but I do have to admit that it is true right now. She needs help and emotionally I can not take any longer with her attitude, actions, and ways of life. She is definitely not the same girl I once know back in 1998. In fact, she is a little scary now. My shower gal KB told me earlier tonight that CSE seems to be a little bit odd and was a little bit off when she first met her and CSE does not seem to be all righo I can t in the head and my friendship with her should be carefully monitored. I happen, seriously, to agree with KB wholeheartedly with her right now and I do have to admit that my friendship with CSE is not healthy at all. I need to watch how much time I spend with her now so I can stay sane and away from the negative vibes she sets off often — everyday actually. I am a happy person now and working again.

It has been an okay sort of evening when KB was here for the one hour and 15 minutes. KB will be back tomorrow at 5 pm – 615 pm and then the rest of the weekend I am defending for myself after 615 pm tomorrow evening. I am going to have some me time this weekend and no time to have CSE over to help me with Bing and some of my chores I can not finish on my own. Now that I am a working woman, a couple of time this week anyway, I have the right to have no face to face contact with people and have me time. The past two weeks have been physically and emotionally draining for me – fear of my fall has settled in long enough and today I am feeling relatively happy after such an emotional week of panic attacks and after affects of frazzled states for three days and now, today, feeling relatively normal for once in a long time – since my bad fall on September 13 that scared the crap out of me emotionally and physically for a while. I feel, right now, at the moment actually, that my world is full of blabbing and blubbering idiot feelings, lol. I just finished watching a repeat episode of Supernatural starring Jared Padalecki (sp?) and Jensen Ackles. Bed time is soon to be because it is going to be 10 pm real soon here in Wisconsin – 7 minutes away anyway.

My plans for the weekend for my me time is to read, write, watch TV, play games onFacebook, and spend time with my kitty Bing Crosby. I will NOT have CSE down here at all this weekend except to see her while she comes down to get the key to go take care of Oreo the cat my neighbor CD’s big kitty. Good night and God bless and I will be back tomorrow sometime. Good night! YAWN!