I am not too happy with CSE right now — once again — and so why in the world do I even bother with her anymore. I have lost my patience in her totally now and do not have any sympathy for her whatsoever anymore and that is not me — the kindhearted person I am most of the time. My heart is becoming a little hardened now and I am finding her excuse after excuse rather old and increasing more and more each day, week, hour, and moment. I rarely saw her this weekend except for a short time and believe me … we did not say good bye or good night. I was not too happy with her whatsoever last night. I was glad she left. Will I see her tomorrow? Probably not. I am going to take the day for myself after my shower gal comes and goes for the day. I am not sure if I will be going to work tomorrow but we shall wait and see weather related. The weather this week has been good and not so good and definitely something I wish I could explain openly but can not do so.
I have not forgotten to come here for the past few days or anything – just was not feeling the greatest – but just took a little break here for a few days. I needed to in order to stay sane with all that was doing on in my world lately. I do have to admit, though, that I was not feeling the greatest. I went to see my doctor, Dr. H on Tuesday to find out why I was not feeling the greatest.