Evening and Final Thoughts Of the Day

I have had my shower and now in my pajamas for the night. I am getting ready for bed now and going to say good night and God bless now and come back sometime tomorrow morning. Because it is Saturday, I am hoping I will sleep in a little bit if my body will let me. I do not have my Saturday shower until 5 pm so I have no reason to get up early unless I go to church but I am not doing so this weekend whatsoever. I am watching an episode of Law & Order — 1994 episode with Chris Noth and Michael Moriarity on the show as well as “Adam Schiff” starring Steven Hill. and Jill Hennesy. I am having a great day so far.

Good night and God bless.

Have a great night!

A Quickie

I will be having my shower in 1 hour 15 minutes from now and so I am taking time just to watch recorded TV for the time being, have Bing close by on the recliner – behind and above my head, and I continue to have time for myself. I have spoken to my caseworker at IDS around 345 pm this afternoon and we talked about what type of face-to-face contact I will be and will not be having this weekend and talked to her how JSL had made me feel this week after Sunday and the other day, and how I am planning on having a CSE-free weekend and what my plans were for the weekend being a “me weekend” alone. MM understood that I needed to have a break from CSE and how I handled my week was pretty darn good. I am so glad the weekend is FINALLY here.

More later…

I Have Been Thinking…

Oh no… I have been thinking, lol. i hope I am not thinking too hard, lol.

Anyway…

This summer has been a hectic summer and not totally sure why either but I have come to the assumption, without making an ass out of me, myself, and I, that it was so because it just a rough summer. My family doctor, Dr. H was on maternity leave from May – the 1st part of August and just got back when I realized that I was not feeling very good physically – constipation had set in and I felt awful. I ended up being in the hospital for 3 nights and 4 days to take care of the problem and another one that ended up being a little backfire from the reason why I in the hospital. Having constipation was no fun and it surely feels great to be constipation-free once again. I remember, barely, being in the hospital for constipation back in February until one of the resident doctors mentioned it when I was there two weeks ago. Anyway…

I am glad the weekend has come – feeling pretty good once again. My summer may have started out kind of hectic but I am going to end it with a big, good bang, and take good care of myself the best I can. This past weekend, being slightly dehydrated and taking care of business for the doctor here at home without running to the ER or to urgent care because I was feeling real yucky, and surviving the weekend drinking lots of water and 1 to 2 gatorades a day for the entire weekend has given me proof enough that I can take care of my health under doctor’s orders without too much anxiety or panic. I did have some anxiety last Friday but it turned out to be curbed and controllable over the weekend to Tuesday morning when my blood work was done once more for a check up on how things were going for me. I could only imagine for a few seconds I did it until it really hit me that I did it and impressed the doctor! Yay!

More later…

Afternoon Thoughts

I am having a good day so far. With grocery shopping out of the way, groceries put away, and no one here but myself and Bing, I do have to admit that I am having a good “me” day without CSE here this afternoon. I have decided, after all, not to have CSE over today or tonight at all. I need some time away from her again and may not have her over at all this entire weekend but Saturday and Sunday is still up for grabs if I still change my mind, CSE might be here for a while over the weekend. I am going to have my shower tonight between 730 and 815 pm tonight so I will have my shower gal here during that time. I do not need CSE here during that time anyway. With her having to go up and check on her cat Ethan every two to three hours, I do have to admit saying why bother having CSE here at all if she has to leave every now and then to go check on a cat who will NEVER learn to not be so filled with anxiety. Ethan has separation anxiety and with CSE going home constantly to check on him will make his anxiety disorder worse. I still believe and agree with others that Ethan is too high strong for CSE but who can tell CSE that if she acts like you are talking to a woman with deafness all the time. So I am glad to have a CSE-free day once more. It is so nice to defend for myself without having company over for hours on end once again. Boy… this has been a rough summer for me but I am still here and with the summer almost over, I am glad that I have been able to function without too much of a problem.

Anyway…

I have been watching some recorded DVR TV programming as well as Live TV on my cable today. I have already played Cafe World for a while, Farkle, and Bejeweled Blitz on Facebook, texted JSL a couple of texts, had breakfast and lunch, and relaxing as I enjoy the rest of the afternoon before my shower gal comes to give me my Friday night shower. I have showers every Monday – Thursday morning at 800 – 915 am, and on Friday at 730 – 845 pm, and Saturdays at 500 – 615 pm. I look forward to my evening and late afternoon showers on the weekend because it is a great treat from having showers on Monday – Thursday mornings. Bing has been napping on my power chair seat for most of the day and afternoon and being such a good boy. He has enjoyed having the house to himself or with just me. I believe he has missed “our” time alone. I am going to take advantage of having a CSE-free weekend this weekend. No face-to-face contact this weekend. I am going to have my door locked all weekend long, not answer to anyone other than my shower gal who will come yet tonight and tomorrow, and be choosy who I text and talk to on the phone all weekend long. i have really enjoyed my CSE-free hours and going to take advantage of it a little longer because I believe that having CSE down here has caused a little roughness between us two this week. I just feels real good not having CSE here yet today.

More later…

Morning Thoughts

I got up at 730 am this morning and got dressed and ready to go grocery shopping at 900 am this morning with my worker. Bing has gotten his morning treats and is one happy kitty with treats in his belly, lol. After grocery shopping at Wal-Mart this morning, I have no major plans for the weekend and I am not totally sure if I am going to have any company much this weekend yet. I think I need an CSE-free weekend but that is yet to be totally decided. I do not think things went very well between us this week for some reason because both of us had high emotions and high expectations of each other. As for today, Friday, I am glad the weekend has finally arrived and I do not feel sick like I did the weekend of August 12 – August 14, and again the weekend of August 19 – August 21. Being in the hospital August 11 – August 14 because I was constipated was my own fault and now on a fiber laxative regimen 3 times a day everyday has really helped my problem big time and things are flowing normally once again. Being constipated is absolutely no fun whatsoever and I do get very uncomfortable and become such a grizzly bear during that time. I cannot argue anymore that I am constipated or even the slightest backed up now. Yay! I am so looking forward to a sick-free weekend. I am not sure if I am going to have any face to face time with anyone this weekend because I do need time for myself for once to read, write, and relax, and communicate through Facebook, email, texting, and talking to people on the phone. I have had one heck of a summer and I do have to admit that this summer has not been the greatest for me this year but from this day forward I am going to make the best of the rest of the summer and function the best I can.

More later…

Morning Thoughts

Good morning! I got up at 730 am this morning and got dressed and ready to go grocery shopping with my worker at 900 am this morning. At times, not always though, I want to have some time for myself before getting busy for the day and usually Fridays are like what today is. I have not had to work for three weeks now but it is going to change starting Monday once again. I am looking forward to work very much so. I miss my bosses and my co-workers very much. I have no plans for the weekend at this time.

Morning Thoughts

Good morning! I got up at 730 am this morning and got dressed and ready to go grocery shopping with my worker at 900 am this morning. At times, not always though, I want to have some time for myself before getting busy for the day and usually Fridays are like what today is. I have not had to work for three weeks now but it is going to change starting Monday once again. I am looking forward to work very much so. I miss my bosses and my co-workers very much. I have no plans for the weekend at this time.