Final Thoughts of the Day/Night & A Good Night

One final hello before I head off for the night. My plans to begin writing my book will have to wait until tomorrow. Words and thought would not come very easy for me today. Where to begin is the problem today but I have not totally given up just yet because today’s idea to write a lot just did not happen …. that’s all. It’s not the end of the world yet. I will write my book yet … for sure. Anyway, I took the day and watched TV all day — both Live TV and recorded shows. In fact, I am still watching/listening to TV ALL day. Tomorrow I will begin writing my book after my morning shower from 8 to 915 am. Dawn will be here tomorrow morning at 8am. Yay! Today just did not go as planned but that is okay. I think I am on the mend from my bathroom issues now. Taking it easy and drinking a lit to keep me hydrated. Being dehydrated is no fun at all. I called the Doctor’s office beteen 4 and 5 pm today to let them what was going on but a nurse has not returned my call before they closed for th night so I will probably hear from a nurse tomorrow some tome during the day. I will have to wait and see when tomorrow finally arrives.

Tomorrow begins a new day so it will be a new start. I hope to be very honest, I do not wake up in the middle of the night in the need or want to write. I have gone through five years of college online getting two accounting degrees — Bachelor’s and Master’s working at different hours on my studies when sleep was not easy after 10 pm almost every night and my studies and all hmework assignments got done with fair, good, great, and awesome scores. I am a working woman again….loving my job very much. When July 2012 rolls around I am going to see about being a facilitator at University of College. I am thinking of it anyway and wlll talk to someone about it when time gets closer.

I see a Budget moving van outside at the back door. A tenant is moving out tonight to a new place. I hope this tenant has a new start at his new place. I still can not wait until KM moves out and never returns to this building. The countdown begins tomorrow on September 1st. KM will be gone as Octobet 1st…YAY! With KM leaving I have that feeling — a good one — that TM will be back to normal once again — for a while anyway. Counting the days!!

It is time for me to say good night and God bless now. Bong and I are relaxing in the recliner for the night. I sleep better reclined now-a-days. Bing is raxing on the recliner back of the chair. Good night and God bless. Yawn…

Bathroom Issues

Gosh …. I am having bathroom issues today. I will be okay though. I think my medicine did not like me too well today. I was afraid to do my fiber treatment today so I will continue that tomorrow if things are better by then. We shall see how things go. I just have to stay hydrated today and tomorrow and the rest of the week. I just have a feeling my body just did not agree with what I ate with my K-Phosfate med today. I am feeling some better now. Will drink another Powerade and more water to stay hydrated. Did eat lunch and since then started to see results turning around. I am glad, now, that I don’t have to work anymore this week but if my bosses do call me. I will definitely go in and make some time/hours/money. Work right now is slow and that is why my hours are very flexible right now and I did not have to work for three weeks.

More later…

Right Now

I am going to be back later. I am going to watch some recorded TV programming and relax in my recliner for a while before I even start writing today. In fact, having frequent bathroom breaks right now, I am not sure if I will even begin writing my book today but since it is only going on 1 pm CST here, it is yet too early to tell what plans will be taking place now. I hope to be back later – whether on my laptop or on my IPod via the internet there. Right now there is a Budget moving van outside by the back door because a tenant is moving out today – not KM – and I hope this tenant does not come knocking at my door today. I do not want to be bothered by anyone here at all today except for one tenant who is supposed to drop off a key to her place so I can check on her cat while she is gone away for the weekend to be with her family – not CSE. I won’t be seeing CSE for a while as I have walked away from her for a while to have a break from her attitude.

I hope to be back later… Good bye for now.


With my shower done, dressed for the day, and watching some recorded TV programming, I am enjoying my morning — the rest of it anyway — wondering what I am going to do the rest of the day. I am not bored or anything. I am actually going to do a lot of writing today. I have been in the mood to write a book for a long time and since I do not have to work anymore this week — unless I hear from my bosses before Friday — I might as well begin writing my “book”. Right now I am not too busy otherwise. I love to write!

More later… Bing is napping on my power chair seat so I can grab my laptop for now and begin writing my book. Later…

More Writing Needed? Yes…

I did get a little nap but I was awakened by my sound spa alarm this morning at 7 am and laid in bed for a few more minutes before taking my morning medications and then decided to stay up for a while. If a nap is needed this afternoon, I will take one since I do not have to go to go to work today – no more work for the rest of the week at this time unless I hear from my bosses.


I do have to admit that I have been thinking about certain family members who I no longer have any communication with because those certain family members have decided to disown me, my parents in AR, and my parents in NM. My parents in NM have not had any communication with certain family members for the longest time now whereas I have as well as my sister and my AR parents were disowned about 3 years ago or so. The last time I saw certain family members was during a family get together during Thanksgiving and shortly after that, all of us were disowned and no communication ever since. Do I cry at night or anytime when it comes to certain family members? No, but I do wonder about them from time and GLAD they are NOT in my life anymore. I am feel FREE from them now and happy without them in my world/life. If they try to crawl back into my life, they will be denied the opportunity – not welcome in my life ever again. They may be thought of from time to time but they are dead to me for good. It is very sad indeed but there is nothing I can do for certain family members anymore but pray for certain family members daily. I do personally wish that I did not even think about them from time to time either because when I do, the fact that I always did something wrong during my visits to PA come to the front of my mind full force. It is sad! That is why I feel I am not busy enough sometimes. That is why I am on Facebook all the time several times a day or all day when I am not working or at work or busy with other things. I am GLAD to have a job now I can go to once or twice a week now to keep me busy. My PA family is dead to me for good now. They will not be able to wiggle themselves back into my life anymore after today…I won’t allow it. They are very sick people.

More later…

Bright & Early…. My World At Times…

I am up for the time being. It is after 4 am in the morning and here I am up – not fully awake exactly at this hour but aware of my surroundings at least. Yes, I am tired but what can I do when I wake up for a while with the need to write. Moments – a need to write do not come at an early hour of the day very often but when it comes, it cones at full force. It is no big deal when it does happen but sometimes it can be a hassle when I want to sleep and have a good physical and mental state – work or not.


I am up and here in the need to write and relax a bit. Sleep is out at the moment this early Wednesday morning. It happens to be the last day of Aygust today and I am still counting the days KM moves out of here for good and never to return to live here again. I have not spoken to her at length since she was here a week or so ago. I am not in the mood to talk to her at length right now or in the future after she moves out by October 1st. She is a liar and someone who cannot be trusted anymore. She lied about MEE and his girlfriend/fiancée. Her resources are people who lie. I am beginning to wonder if she even has resources and she lies through her teeth… I found out yesterday from another person I just met – a cousin to MEE’s fiancée she says – stated that her cousin is pregnant again and her first baby is not a year old yet. The idea chilled every blood vessel and bone in my body. I was pretty shaken up by the news and told my BFF and we both believe that MEE is probably getting his girl pregnant to get more money from the state. I find that idea horrible and gross and I do hope that MEE and his fiancée get help for the illnesses they have. I am so GLAD that MEE is out of my life today and out of my life he will remain for the rest of my life. He is one sick individual! I have not sId anything to anyone except to my BFF and I dare say anything to KM the lateSt news and I will not either.

The other day I have decided to walk away from CSE for a while because her attitude lately has been strange and uncomfortable for me. I am not busy enough now-a-days since work is still new and fresh and having her at my place has become too much for some reason. Yes she has been a big help to me and Bing this summer but since we reconnected I have seen changes in her that have been uncomfortable for me lately and have dealt with enough drama in my own life and around me that it makes me cringe and my heart ache way too often. Her birthday was yesterday and I did not want to even celebrate her birthday or do I wish to at this time. I need my space. Bing and I have not had time alone with just us two for so long. Not having CSE here Tuesday and Wednesday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, or anytime yet this week as of date, I realized Bing’s need to have me to himself and he has been a very good kitty lately. Having someone here everyday was too much for Binowg and I believe he thought I was ignoring him when I wasn’t. Bing and I have had some wonderful talks and cuddles the past few days. Bing does understand that that I have shower gals come and go 6 days a week, though. What a cat he is. I do love Bing very much and have realized how much I do love him very much and will do my best to understand him more Tom now on. In fact… we have Lapp time and cuddle time with him everyday now that CSE is not visiting often now.

Now it is time to take a little nap before my 7 am alarm goes off and I have to get ready for my shower gal to help with my shower. I have more I need/want to write but it can wait for a while. I am going to be back later – after my shower and my shower gal leaves. Going to say good night and God bless for a liitle bit and come back later. Bye for now…

Good Afternoon, I Think, LOL

Good afternoon! I do have to admit that my morning was fairly busy with two people being here at the same time at 8 am – 915 am. I had my shower at the same time when J was here at 8 to 915 am as well. I feel that my house was full of company this morning that my head was spinning fast and furiously. I am glad, after 915 am, I had my house to myself to breathe and relax. I do not have to go to work anymore this week because my bosses do not have anything for me to do anymore this week. I will be getting my first paycheck this week by Thursday or Friday. YAY!

A Moment

I have company coming in a few minutes so I do not have a whole lot of time to write at the moment but I wanted to say good morning and God bless before I really start my day. J is coming to help me clean, do laundry, and prepare a couple of meals for the week, and my shower gal will be here as well from 8 to 915 am. I have a busy Tuesday morning today and I do not have to go to work but will see what tomorrow, Thursday, and Friday will bring as far as work is concerned yet this week. I better go for now and get ready for my morning. Good bye for now.

Thoughts & Good Night

I have, after talking to a very moody CSE this afternoon – a girl who would not answer one simple question – decided to walk away from CSE for a while. I can not deal with her moods anymore/until she get professional help for het problem(s) she has brought on herself by being a liar and negative towards me. I am not going to allow her to help me and Bing anymore, either. This decision cane about after trying to talk to het civilly earlier today. She practically brought tears to my eyes because of her attitude. I can no longer deal with negativity anymore and CSE has been very negative lately and dishonest to me and NMS.

With that said, I am going to say good night